note...
I want this somewhere not password protected for a possible future. Shared with those mentioned below.
When I kill myself, I want people to know that they ARE to blame. I'm doing this because you have made my life so miserable.
I want to give a special mention to my dad, who spent all our lives, bullying my mum and each of his kids in turn. Don't sit there in self-pity, the reason it seems nobody loves you or wants to spend time with you is because your a pathetic, selfish, self-absorbed, abusive bully.
My mum, who never stood up for herself, or us and who now expects us to rescue her ever so often; your depressing. You and dad, control us all the time. I have no room to be alive and what's sad is that no matter how many times it's explained to you, you never see it that way.
Your both entirely at fault. You both deserve every scrap of guilt you'll feel after I die except your so twisted the pair of you, that you'll find some way of reasoning that you weren't to blame. Yes you are to blame, so many reasons, I can't even list them all.
I think the two of you. Yes, other people/factors contribute; lack of money to move out; (name)s fault; underpaying me all these years. My uncle, sexual abuse does not a stable adult make, but right now the pair of you. You know why else your at fault mum? Never stopping my uncle from visiting even now.
So yes, I hope you can read this and I hope you know that you should feel as guilty as hell for this. Also want you to know that you don't just bloody have kids; you realise that you have a responsibility to them forever and you should be financially ABLE before you have them. I paid for myself; for everything, you will deny this; that is your problem.
I hope you both suffer. You deserve it. Oh by the way if I kill myself in August, I owe my therapist £180.
Oh and it's not just financial it's emotional support people seek from parents, but you both had such huge emotional problems yourselves, what could you do for your kids.
When I kill myself, I want people to know that they ARE to blame. I'm doing this because you have made my life so miserable.
I want to give a special mention to my dad, who spent all our lives, bullying my mum and each of his kids in turn. Don't sit there in self-pity, the reason it seems nobody loves you or wants to spend time with you is because your a pathetic, selfish, self-absorbed, abusive bully.
My mum, who never stood up for herself, or us and who now expects us to rescue her ever so often; your depressing. You and dad, control us all the time. I have no room to be alive and what's sad is that no matter how many times it's explained to you, you never see it that way.
Your both entirely at fault. You both deserve every scrap of guilt you'll feel after I die except your so twisted the pair of you, that you'll find some way of reasoning that you weren't to blame. Yes you are to blame, so many reasons, I can't even list them all.
I think the two of you. Yes, other people/factors contribute; lack of money to move out; (name)s fault; underpaying me all these years. My uncle, sexual abuse does not a stable adult make, but right now the pair of you. You know why else your at fault mum? Never stopping my uncle from visiting even now.
So yes, I hope you can read this and I hope you know that you should feel as guilty as hell for this. Also want you to know that you don't just bloody have kids; you realise that you have a responsibility to them forever and you should be financially ABLE before you have them. I paid for myself; for everything, you will deny this; that is your problem.
I hope you both suffer. You deserve it. Oh by the way if I kill myself in August, I owe my therapist £180.
Oh and it's not just financial it's emotional support people seek from parents, but you both had such huge emotional problems yourselves, what could you do for your kids.