And I'm Back
So other than my entry about Keavagh's, I haven't written a real entry in about a month. Now I will explain the entire details of my life since then.
A lot happened in the month of March. My last concrete entry was about my mom's visit to UW when I lost my purse. Since then, I've done a lot of homework, had a couple tests, written a couple papers. Joe came to Madison with Nellie and other Iowa friends before heading home for their break. It was an added bonus that I then got to see Katie that weekend too. Neat girl that one. Then came my spring break. I didn't do too much worth talking about. I saw a lot of my family, friends and people I didn't think I'd ever see again in my life. By that, I mean all the randomness of people at Dan Fosters and the O'leary-Clifts. Both events turned well (at least in respect to the people there), and I had good chats with people I wouldn't have normally like Chuck and Chris Hodson. Both are very good guys. I sometimes forget the good stuff in people from high school because either I just remember the bad or I remember unjustified feelings that I had or I just think back on certain things in a negative light. I need to work on remembering the good instead. Also, I managed to get all my stuff from the stolen purse all worked out including getting a new phone (which has the same number in case any of you want to call!).
The last two weeks at school have flown by. On a whim, I decided to go to La Crosse last weekend. Fortunately there is a guy that drives every weekend, so I didn't have to take the greyhound. Stef did an awesome job in her competition. It was cool to see her again with Em and Keavagh like we used to. Em's friends there are really nice, and her friend Jess had her friend there for the weekend who was very cute and funny. Unfortunatly, he goes to Eau Claire and lives in Shaboygen. He did say I had pretty eyes though : ) It was an awesome weekend. I haven't experienced that kind of comfort around people for a long time. When I'm at home, I do, but not usually with new people. Jess is just awesome I guess, and Emily is lucky to have moved across from her. I wish I had that completely trusting relationship with someone, but I don't. The closest are probably Chelsea and Katie. I know I don't have to pretend around them, and they are great friends, but we don't share all that much in common. I don't know. I guess even though I have some really good friends, I don't feel like I've clicked with anyone the way you think you will when you go to college and find all these new great people. Ok, all those things are just too complicated for me right now. I'm pushing them out of my mind.
I forgot the best part of my spring break. Alex and I hung out for a whole day. We went downtown, got her prom dress, ate Chipotle, hung around at her house and my house, I got to see Sam who is so cute now and we eventually ended up at Jakey's with people. She is what I'm talking about when I say I want to click with someone again. We really don't talk that much when I'm at school, but when I come home we can sit in a Chipotle for hours and we would never ever run out of things to say to each other. She may not be the first person I'd turn to in a time of severe crisis, but at the same time, I know that I could tell her anything at all and not have to be embarrassed or ashamed. I guess I just feel like everyone else has gained a new best friend at school, and I've been left out of it completely.
I decided to come home this weekend since the VanKs were coming anyway to get Ryne. Tonight I ate with my Grandparents, and my mom and I watched Divine Secrets of the Ya Ya Sisterhood on TV. Exciting times, I know. Tomorrow I have a lunch date with Claire. I'm going to some art opening with my mom, and we might see a movie. Other than that I need to do a lot of chem studying for my exam on Tuesday. I'm enjoying being home and not feeling like I need to run around and see a billion people. I can just be HOME. It's good stuff.
The next four weeks are not going to be so bad. After my chem test on Tuesday I don't have anything big due until the end of the year. In four weeks, I will turn in two papers, and then I'll have about 5 days until my finals start. Then I am out of those dorms forever. I haven't hung out with the new roomies yet... oops. I have a couple goals for the next month. I want to get a 90 on my chem test and also get at least 13s on all my quizes. I NEED that grade in that class or I'm never going to medical school. I also need to find a job for the summer. Yuck. And my last goal is a long term goal which is to lose 10 pounds by Poland. This isn't a vain, I need to weigh this certain number thing, but I don't think I am healthy right now, and I don't think I look healthy. I need that weight in my head to keep me going. The eating healthy thing I'm doing a lot better at lately. I decided I'm not drinking until summer which cuts out a lot of calories and a lot of time wasted. I don't work out much which I need to do. This is mostly because I'm busy and don't have time to work out at night, but I don't get up to do it in the morning either. That is going to change, and then I can buy lots of nice, cute summer clothes for Poland. Exciting. The only really hard thing for the last month will be with Val. Things are difficult right now, and it makes me feel really bad. It's nothing new, but I guess I always thought things would work out before the end and then here it is: the end.
Alright, well that has been ridiculously long. I hope any of you that read it enjoyed it. Now, I must read history since I'm about 50 pages behind. Everyone have a good weekend.