Life In General
Sometimes I think that they should make a movie of my life, but then I remember that there's no way it's interesting enough lol.
In short, I miss my summer already. I never thought that I would have such an amazing summer that I wouldn't want to go back to school, but it seems to have happened! I miss Romania, I miss Colorado, I miss Bedford. And I miss all the people that I met/hung out with. I feel like I was actually happy for the first time in a long time and now it's been taken away from me. I realize that's how life works, but it's still sad. I love my AC friends, but seeing all of them just made all of the feelings that I felt last semester come back. And I don't like that feeling. So, instead of sitting around bitching about it I've decided to make some goals for myself. I'm going to write them down here. They're just some things I'd like to work on this semster.
1. Keeping my complaints to myself (in particular, when they involve a certain person). Sometimes it's ok to complain, and sometimes it isn't. I have been blessed and cursed with having a wonderful group of friends that are all very close to each other. There will come times when I really want to rant about someone, but I have to be careful who I rant to. Because ranting to the wrong people creates tension and drama.
2. Go to church more. I want to become closer to God. I've been neglecting my relationship with him while paying so much attention to my other relationships. I need to have faith that he will take care of me. I don't have a lot of faith right now, and there's a simple fix to it. I just have to get up early on Sundays. (which is real hard)
3. Pay attention to what I already have and stop wishing for what I don't. I believe that a lot of my jealousy and bad energy come from this longing for the grass on the other side of the fence, and forgetting that I already have my own. I want to think of the things I'm thankful for, rather than being jealous of what others have. I know I have a good life. Now it's time for me to appreciate it.
4. Meet new people. Interacting with the same people every day leaves me feeling restless and annoyed. I don't want to burn any bridges in a moment of annoyance or weakness. Maybe broadening my network will help me appreciate the friends I already have.
Thoughts? Suggestions? I'm hoping to take this in to Rose when I see her Thursday. Maybe she'll have some suggestions.
By the way, writing this all down have been very helpful. I feel a lot better!
In short, I miss my summer already. I never thought that I would have such an amazing summer that I wouldn't want to go back to school, but it seems to have happened! I miss Romania, I miss Colorado, I miss Bedford. And I miss all the people that I met/hung out with. I feel like I was actually happy for the first time in a long time and now it's been taken away from me. I realize that's how life works, but it's still sad. I love my AC friends, but seeing all of them just made all of the feelings that I felt last semester come back. And I don't like that feeling. So, instead of sitting around bitching about it I've decided to make some goals for myself. I'm going to write them down here. They're just some things I'd like to work on this semster.
1. Keeping my complaints to myself (in particular, when they involve a certain person). Sometimes it's ok to complain, and sometimes it isn't. I have been blessed and cursed with having a wonderful group of friends that are all very close to each other. There will come times when I really want to rant about someone, but I have to be careful who I rant to. Because ranting to the wrong people creates tension and drama.
2. Go to church more. I want to become closer to God. I've been neglecting my relationship with him while paying so much attention to my other relationships. I need to have faith that he will take care of me. I don't have a lot of faith right now, and there's a simple fix to it. I just have to get up early on Sundays. (which is real hard)
3. Pay attention to what I already have and stop wishing for what I don't. I believe that a lot of my jealousy and bad energy come from this longing for the grass on the other side of the fence, and forgetting that I already have my own. I want to think of the things I'm thankful for, rather than being jealous of what others have. I know I have a good life. Now it's time for me to appreciate it.
4. Meet new people. Interacting with the same people every day leaves me feeling restless and annoyed. I don't want to burn any bridges in a moment of annoyance or weakness. Maybe broadening my network will help me appreciate the friends I already have.
Thoughts? Suggestions? I'm hoping to take this in to Rose when I see her Thursday. Maybe she'll have some suggestions.
By the way, writing this all down have been very helpful. I feel a lot better!