this isnt REALLY a rant...just a flood of thoughts

[evanpolkadot]

we have all been taught to look for that one specific person out there who completes you.
i have been told
"he's out there"
keep looking.
and on i look.
but what if this is not so.
there are billions of people in the world
and what if not one of them is not is intended for me?
what if the one i want wants someone else?
whatif im jist not meant to love.
the what if's again.
they never help my situation.
so often im told "youre YOUNG!" dont worry about it
and so often i think
why cant i be her
why cant i have him
why cant i be the one.
sutpid "why's".
maybe im too difficult.
im tall, im akward, i never say the right things
who wants to deal with that right?
on the other hand do i really want to be tied down?
NO! i want to embrace life
see what it has to offer me and what i have to offer it
i want to travel the world and not have to worry about anyone else but myself
perhaps you think thats selfish,
i think its being realistic.
i dont need a man, a soulmate, a true love!
but i want one all the same
i love my home but i just cant stand being here.
im ready to leave im ready to see whats out there
and who is out there.