a letter for god.
Dear God,
First off i want to say thank you for all that you have given me. I am so incredibly lucky! i have an amazing family who loves me and keeps a roof over my head, and i have a mother who would give her life for me. Thank you for giving me Mr. Hufty to enhance my knowledge of music and make my ppassion for it grow even more then it is. As much as i get my feelings hurt by him sometimes, i have come to realize how muc he ereally loves all of hisstudents and just wants to bethe best teacher possible. Thank you for giving me the horses, which is something that i am always good at and is a place where i can get away from drama and my other shortcomings in live.
You have also filled my life with good people who try their hardest. i am just tired of everyone being hurt, the pain that goes on whether its from family, the opposite sex, or friends. it hurts ME to see them that way and i only wish i could make it better for them.
help me to hold my tongue. i mean no harm, i am just an honest person but sometimes, alot of thetimes i say things that arent my place to say so PLEASe help me stop that, although iam getting better at that.
Well i have been saying for a long time that iwas going to become a stronger and moreconfident person and i finally have! so i am ver greatful for that aswell.
There is one certain issue i need help on. (you know who i speak of) i cant forget about him!! i've tried by dating others and i have even successfully liked others but i never ever stop liking him. why? hes nothing amazing. we were best friends at one time...but i took care of that, me and my craziness...now it is just akward and i fear it will never be the same again...i try and i try to make it better and sometimes i feel successful (hes even telling me secrets again!) but most of the time i just feel as if im annoying him like im a thorn in his side...he tells me no...buti know him better then that...so i need you to make me stop. i know its not love. i know i have no conception of being "in love" so im not going to pretend to be...but whatever i am...can you make it stop? im tired of feeling this way just becuase of him...its a horrible feeling that i cant live with forever...please take it away.
please allow me to show my sincerity in all my actions let me always be honest and never judge...let me count my blessings always and take the gifts you have given to me and run with them making the best of everything that is in front of me.
bless the girl who is so much like me but is in an even worse situation...she is an amazing AMAZING girl but doesnt even begin to comprehend her worth. let her realize this and get out of the situations shes been in safely and knowing that she is a smart strong BRAVE girl who can do anything. let her know how much she is loved by me and many.
it makes me feel a TON better knowing that you are listening and are always there when i have no one else to talk to or even EVERBODY to talk to...
Love,
Evan
First off i want to say thank you for all that you have given me. I am so incredibly lucky! i have an amazing family who loves me and keeps a roof over my head, and i have a mother who would give her life for me. Thank you for giving me Mr. Hufty to enhance my knowledge of music and make my ppassion for it grow even more then it is. As much as i get my feelings hurt by him sometimes, i have come to realize how muc he ereally loves all of hisstudents and just wants to bethe best teacher possible. Thank you for giving me the horses, which is something that i am always good at and is a place where i can get away from drama and my other shortcomings in live.
You have also filled my life with good people who try their hardest. i am just tired of everyone being hurt, the pain that goes on whether its from family, the opposite sex, or friends. it hurts ME to see them that way and i only wish i could make it better for them.
help me to hold my tongue. i mean no harm, i am just an honest person but sometimes, alot of thetimes i say things that arent my place to say so PLEASe help me stop that, although iam getting better at that.
Well i have been saying for a long time that iwas going to become a stronger and moreconfident person and i finally have! so i am ver greatful for that aswell.
There is one certain issue i need help on. (you know who i speak of) i cant forget about him!! i've tried by dating others and i have even successfully liked others but i never ever stop liking him. why? hes nothing amazing. we were best friends at one time...but i took care of that, me and my craziness...now it is just akward and i fear it will never be the same again...i try and i try to make it better and sometimes i feel successful (hes even telling me secrets again!) but most of the time i just feel as if im annoying him like im a thorn in his side...he tells me no...buti know him better then that...so i need you to make me stop. i know its not love. i know i have no conception of being "in love" so im not going to pretend to be...but whatever i am...can you make it stop? im tired of feeling this way just becuase of him...its a horrible feeling that i cant live with forever...please take it away.
please allow me to show my sincerity in all my actions let me always be honest and never judge...let me count my blessings always and take the gifts you have given to me and run with them making the best of everything that is in front of me.
bless the girl who is so much like me but is in an even worse situation...she is an amazing AMAZING girl but doesnt even begin to comprehend her worth. let her realize this and get out of the situations shes been in safely and knowing that she is a smart strong BRAVE girl who can do anything. let her know how much she is loved by me and many.
it makes me feel a TON better knowing that you are listening and are always there when i have no one else to talk to or even EVERBODY to talk to...
Love,
Evan