Surrender

[evangelion_100]

So is this where
I say goodbye
is this
where I let go
swiftly
detaching myself
from fading memories
ignoring the cold
that scrapes at my bones

I can see the wind
take salvation
into the clouds;
restlessly
shifting shapes
(tired of change
I salvage what bitter meaning
can be found
beneath the lascivious saints
that are strewn about with ostensible randomness)

is this how
I stay the same
stagnate
fiercely
into something
chaotically destructive
(I find something
too little
to call my own)

and I may be found
someday
staring strangely
at the cracks in the sky
looking for purity
and eternal understanding
blessing the serene emptiness
that I welcome cordially
to glow incandescently
beside me
the damaged boy
that remains
obsessed with silence

perhaps I have drained
all purpose
from this passion
but I will find sweetness
somewhere
because I have held bliss
bled magnanimity
from my brittle body
witnessed lustful lies
take dignity by its pretty throat
in the broadness of indifferent daylight
and I have seen
beauty run rapidly away
from me
so many times before
so I let go
(so i let go)