Tiny Little One

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Sinister light
pours through my window
(the night
rises perfectly
and speaks
of sadistic apologies
and sorrow
breaking against
your eyes,
so saliently painful)
and time
is wearing you down
so weak
and vulnerable
consumed by self-loathing

How strange you are
perpetually on your knees
as you walk
the earth
bathing in pity
never even attempting
to find your heart
in the tangled mess
of this predictable pathos

Can you not
breathe
and discard the nervous laughter
that betrays the doubt
which covers your mind
(your soul
is crippled and old
plastic
and decaying
beneath the weight
of your desperate inadequacies,
as a child you remain
desperately scraping at what little love you can find
while you fall asunder)
yet you can't see
what you have constructed
so carefully
blinded by endless tears

Crawl on
and move away
from imperfection
move away
from me