Writing as a tool to explore fantasies

[evangeline1138]

Prompted by a discussion on the SGCdarkfic list....

This has probably been discussed before ad nauseum, but since I rarely get to read anything--online or otherwise--these days, please bear with me.

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[evangeline1138]

I try to avoid writing anything that's too easily identifiable for me as my own personal fantasy, because it's *me* and not the characters. Everyone knows that about as canon-bound as you can get, and so when I sit down to write fic there's always a conscious effort to make things *they* would say and do rather than things that *I* would say and do.

I don't think I explained myself very well before, which isn't a first. *g* I don't think about making fic that is part of one of my fantasies, but many times after writing a snippet, I can examine it and find a little or a lot of my fantasy life in there. Hopefully my Sam is more *Sam* and less me. I really can't imagine her being much like me in my fic at all, because we are very different people (in many more ways than the fact that she is fictional and I am real *g*). I try to make her--and the others--in character despite the non-canon situations I put her into. "Canon" and "in character" don't necessarily mean the same thing. Putting Sam and Jack together in a sexual relationship is non-canon, but I think it's possible to write it in character despite it never happening on the show--yet. *eg* (A person can hope, can't she?) *rambleramble* Anyway, what I'm getting at is that I think I used the wrong terminology before. A Mary Sue is, I think, considered to be someone too perfect or possibly a self-insertion or someone out of character. (Feel free to correct me if I'm wrong.) So me *imagining* myself in Sam's place isn't really a self-insertion, I guess, since I try to keep her sounding like herself, and doing things she would ordinarily do--such as turn to science rather than take a human relations view for a fix that Daniel would try first. It's more like *reading* yourself into a fic after the creation maybe. You know, the way people insert themselves into a character they are enjoying when they read a book. I can be very obtuse when trying to explain myself, can't I? *laugh*

I think this is maybe why I have a problem with OT3 fic in this particular genre...

See my thoughts above about why I can see OT3 or OT4 almost as much as any other pairing at this point. Maybe I'm being extreme, but it always seems that past a certain point no relationship is possible. What I'm really trying to say, I guess, is that any relationship beyond friendship for ANY of them seems impossible by now. Even S/J. (Although I hope I'm wrong. *prays to whatever gods there are out there for some canon S/J...uh...anything. ANYTHING, I say!)

Oy. I will have to finish this later because it's time for me to pick up the kidlet from daycare. *puts bookmark on Christi's reply*

[daisycm83]

Okay, well *reading* yourself into a fic I think is a fairly common experience. Why do you think there are so many dime a dozen cheesy romance novels out there? Words are powerful things, and invoking an image that hits a few of your personal kinks is fun.

Maybe I'm being extreme, but it always seems that past a certain point no relationship is possible. What I'm really trying to say, I guess, is that any relationship beyond friendship for ANY of them seems impossible by now.

Awe. Pessimistic Eva? *pets Eva* I don't know. I guess that there was *enough* resolved on screen that my brain pretty much sees S/J as canon at this point. Especially after a few comments AT has been reported to make. It doesn't stretch the limits of my imagination at all (I mean that in a good way, even if it sounds like a bad thing). OT3 fic, in this genre, does. I'm not sure why. I could go into this whole idea I sort of vaguely have about how OT3 fic to me tends to indicate slightly broken!SG-1, and that's a concept I really don't buy, but I won't because my thoughts are sort of one-sided on that particular issue.