Dec 19, 2004 11:56
...What did I do to you? I know, all I ever do is complain and am a fucking WASTE of your time, right? That's why I'm here. Your life was a fucking walk in the park until I came along, right?? RIGHT!? That's what you always tell me. I'm a fucking worthless demon spawn. I'm more trouble than I'm worth. Right? Remember, remember when I was nine and I kicked a hole through my bedroom door because you were making fun of me? Remember when my teacher called the social service on you because I talked about killing myself? Remember when you grabbed me by the jaw and slammed my head into the wall because I refused to get you something? Remember? I'm just a fucking waste, of course you don't remember.
I woke up, mourning...I woke up dead today. I aged a thousand years or more. I flinch when you are nice. You kill me with a single word. When angels fuck and devils kiss, I'm sure. I'll bask in your forever - You just waste my time. I want to drag you down, down with me. I wanted to help, to help destroy the world. I wanted to be that, to be that special girl. Everybody's got a little something to hide, but me.
Everybody's got a little someone to crush, but me. I'm living in a human teenage mediocrity. Everybody's got a little someone to trust, but me. I dreamed that I was you - I dreamed your ego died. Said, "who loves you more than I do?"...I know you lied. I'll bask in your forever...Fucking waste of time. Angels fuck and devils screw. I wanted to heal me and then destroy the world, Piss in your heart and be that, and be that special girl. Everybody's got a little something to hide but me. Everybody's got a little someone to crush but me. I'm living in a teenage negative mediocrity. Everybody's got a little someone to trust but me...But me, but you...Not me...Hate you...Love me, love me, hate you...Want me, fuck you, hate me..Kill you...Fuck me, like you, want me...Like you want you fuck you...Fuck me, fuck you, fuck you fuck you fuck me...Fuck you, fuck me, fuck you fuck you fuck me - you never loved me - Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you fuck you fuck me...I will never make it better...I will never make it better. It will always hurt you fucking asshole...