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[evanfall]

Biting keeps your words at bay
tending to the sores that stay
happiness is just a GASH away
when i open up a familiar scar
pain goes shooting like a star
comfort hasn't failed to follow so far

and you might say its self-indulgent
you might say its self-destructive
but you see its more productive
then if i were to be happy :-/

and pens and penknives take the blame
crane my neck & scratch my name
but the ugly marks
are worth the momentary gain...
when i jab a sharpened object in
choirs of angels seem to sing
hymns of hate in memorandum

and you might say its self-indulgent
you might say its self-destructive
but you see its more productive
then if i were to be healthy x_X

and sappy songs about sex and cheeting
bland accounts of two lovers meeting
makes me want to give mankind a beating

and as the skin rips off
i cherish the revolting thought
and even if i quit
theres not a chance in HELL i'd stop
and anyone can see the signs
mittens in the summertime
thank you for your pitty,
you are too kind

and you might say its self-destructive
but you see i'd kick the bucket
sixty times before i'd kick the habit

and you might say its self-inflicted
but you see thats contradictive
why on earth would anyone practice
self-destruction?

and pain opinions are sitcom feeding
they dont know that their minds are teething
makes me want to give mankind a beating....

i've tried bandages and sinking
i've tried gloves and even thinking
i've tried vaseline...
i've tried everything....

and no one cares if your back is bleeding
they're concerned with there hair receding
looking back it was all maltreating
every thought that occured misleading...
makes me want to give myself a beating.