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[evanescence66]

I am sick again! I hate this! My nose burns! I feel bad becaue of the way I've been treating my boyfriend. But I have soemthign to say. You CAN NOT help who you are attracted to. I have always had crushes and I have several right now. The only problem is, the people I have crushes on are unavailable to me!! Here is my favorite song right now. I TOTALLY feel these lyrics and I was goign to put it in my last entry but I forgot:

Crossfade - Cold
Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you

And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold
so true...........