Oh, I cannot grieve anymore
i couldn't sleep more than a few hours today. i thought after Pat's birthday last fall that this day wouldn't be as bad this year, but i was wrong. it's bad, on so many levels. i mean, it's ok as far as days like this go, it's more of a peaceful sadness if that even makes sense. i'm ok now with Pat's passing, and i don't feel as if i have to carry that grief around with me forever anymore. i'm still having twinges of guilt over finally being ok with it, but i can deal with that.
what i can't deal with is this sudden turn Moloch's taken recently. i spoke to him on my cell the other day and he seems to be obsessed with doing something about the Slayer. it's almost like he's a totally different person. which is silly, of course, but it feels that way.
Izzy stopped over this afternoon to ask a favor of me. she's having to go out of town on business and wants me to stop in and make sure her employees aren't burning the place down in her absence. of course i told her i would do it when i went into work in the evenings. i suggested maybe Astraeia could peek in there during the day, since i can't. as soon as the sun sets i'm gonna go see Astraeia and Willy and ask her for Izzy.
what i can't deal with is this sudden turn Moloch's taken recently. i spoke to him on my cell the other day and he seems to be obsessed with doing something about the Slayer. it's almost like he's a totally different person. which is silly, of course, but it feels that way.
Izzy stopped over this afternoon to ask a favor of me. she's having to go out of town on business and wants me to stop in and make sure her employees aren't burning the place down in her absence. of course i told her i would do it when i went into work in the evenings. i suggested maybe Astraeia could peek in there during the day, since i can't. as soon as the sun sets i'm gonna go see Astraeia and Willy and ask her for Izzy.