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so i got thinking again that yeah i think i might be okay with going to college for Art in New York.
I mean, sometimes i think art is some tedious shit thats fun to do. But after a while i can only stay interested so long. And to dedicate your proffession to having to do with art is a pretty big deal. Sad. I feel Sad!
eh but then again i could go back to wanting to like go into the record business and producing and recording. Both of which im shaky on. I really honestly dont know anymore.
but while i was walking back to my cathcolicism class i saw that the art teacher was talking about a new project and i was so DESPRATE to go and join that class. i havnt taken an art class since i think freshmen year. sophmore year i took ceramics which was a HUGE waste of time since i SUCK at it. PSH WHAT A FUCKIN WASTE.
but anyway, obviusly my talent is best not expressed in ""mud". or cermaics. i dont know im bitter about it.
SOOOO i really really really hope that i can take an art 2 class second semester but at the same time i want to try my hand at photography....because not to like say zomg im the shit but i like to think im pretty good at it. Its all kind of very similar. you kinda need to know what goes where and what looks good with what.
ANOTHER thing thats pretty hectic is the holidays. Bah i hate the holidays. I like the aspect of GETTING the gifts. Just not the grueling decision of what am i going to get for aunt May. Psh
and then theres the wholle money issue. Im not rich. infact, i dont have a single penny on me and each commercial i see each pine tree i see it reminds me that christmas is coming and i dotn have money or an idea what to get for people.
and then theres the awkward decsions of is Sally really a good friend enough to buy a present for ? EH?
But yes it is a pretty nice scenery when its snows. And snow days are nice. But i still dont like the cold and i also dont like the wet freezingness of it all and the fact that my skin gets REALLY ZOMFG dry.
load up on body moisturizer and freeze my ass of in my school skirt.
BUT OF ALL THESE MANY OH SO MANY THINGS THAT BOTHER ME.
is the fact that this chick i know is meeting MCR and taking some other random girl i know with her. Bah its all karma i swear. Im not gona say how but i know the reason. Actually fuck that. psh. im nervous to ask her if maybe just maybe she can get me backstage passes with her. I mean we are friends yes yeah yeah but what if i said id pay her? i dotn want to seem like im using her and shit.. im just asking. id understand if she said no but i dotn want to pressure her but SHE KNOWS how much of an mcr freak i am so its already pressure if i ask her.
bah i dotn know what to do. i guess ill try and be real cool about it and chill even tho my heart will most likely be a million miles a minute. I MEAN SHIT
this band. God this band saved me from hell. I can honestly say that! I sound like tons of other kids but whats wrong with that? I mean nobodys unique. Srsly theres gotta be sombody you can relate to that is like you somehow. If not then your probably in the guiness world book of records or like in the looney bin.
So.yes.hum. dear me.
byebye
I mean, sometimes i think art is some tedious shit thats fun to do. But after a while i can only stay interested so long. And to dedicate your proffession to having to do with art is a pretty big deal. Sad. I feel Sad!
eh but then again i could go back to wanting to like go into the record business and producing and recording. Both of which im shaky on. I really honestly dont know anymore.
but while i was walking back to my cathcolicism class i saw that the art teacher was talking about a new project and i was so DESPRATE to go and join that class. i havnt taken an art class since i think freshmen year. sophmore year i took ceramics which was a HUGE waste of time since i SUCK at it. PSH WHAT A FUCKIN WASTE.
but anyway, obviusly my talent is best not expressed in ""mud". or cermaics. i dont know im bitter about it.
SOOOO i really really really hope that i can take an art 2 class second semester but at the same time i want to try my hand at photography....because not to like say zomg im the shit but i like to think im pretty good at it. Its all kind of very similar. you kinda need to know what goes where and what looks good with what.
ANOTHER thing thats pretty hectic is the holidays. Bah i hate the holidays. I like the aspect of GETTING the gifts. Just not the grueling decision of what am i going to get for aunt May. Psh
and then theres the wholle money issue. Im not rich. infact, i dont have a single penny on me and each commercial i see each pine tree i see it reminds me that christmas is coming and i dotn have money or an idea what to get for people.
and then theres the awkward decsions of is Sally really a good friend enough to buy a present for ? EH?
But yes it is a pretty nice scenery when its snows. And snow days are nice. But i still dont like the cold and i also dont like the wet freezingness of it all and the fact that my skin gets REALLY ZOMFG dry.
load up on body moisturizer and freeze my ass of in my school skirt.
BUT OF ALL THESE MANY OH SO MANY THINGS THAT BOTHER ME.
is the fact that this chick i know is meeting MCR and taking some other random girl i know with her. Bah its all karma i swear. Im not gona say how but i know the reason. Actually fuck that. psh. im nervous to ask her if maybe just maybe she can get me backstage passes with her. I mean we are friends yes yeah yeah but what if i said id pay her? i dotn want to seem like im using her and shit.. im just asking. id understand if she said no but i dotn want to pressure her but SHE KNOWS how much of an mcr freak i am so its already pressure if i ask her.
bah i dotn know what to do. i guess ill try and be real cool about it and chill even tho my heart will most likely be a million miles a minute. I MEAN SHIT
this band. God this band saved me from hell. I can honestly say that! I sound like tons of other kids but whats wrong with that? I mean nobodys unique. Srsly theres gotta be sombody you can relate to that is like you somehow. If not then your probably in the guiness world book of records or like in the looney bin.
So.yes.hum. dear me.
byebye