Jan 21, 2006 14:55
If I had been a bit bolder I might have hinted to my crone lovers to the south that I wanted him killed before he impregnated me. They might have done it, they wanted to anyhow and if they thought it would win them more of my favor they might have hastened their plans a little. But master would have known my part in it and he would not have been pleased. So I said nothing.
The first time I offered I was drunk and blunt in the way Prince Conrad prefers me. His vitae was with me and it always makes me an animal. Jayden refused me, muttered some excuse about the act of motherhood requiring more respect then me being drunk. I’ll not weep on his shoulder over this. It terrifies me and I feel horrible for bearing a poor little child to be some idiot dragon’s experiment. But drunk I could have borne it. The insensitive prick!
I thought him alarmed by my forward demeanor and resolved that in the future I would only suggest and never be so blatant as my vampire lovers seem to prefer me. Several times I hinted that we might engage as we had been commanded. And always he waited.
It was then I resolved to punish him as best I might.
It was all I could have hoped for, lord Dioval demanding his underwear and his pants while we were in an off room of Elysium. And when master yelled “Eva that is disgusting.” I laughed at poor Jayden, he went a bit limp at that I might add. “wouldn’t you have preferred me drunk darling?” Amazingly he managed to finish, I used the rippling muscles to get him to cum and it works of course it always works. Tis a good thing I did as well. Master pulled me off of him not too long after. Master, I’m sorry I know you didn’t like to see my cruelty but I couldn’t have done it for you otherwise. I’m sorry master. And then I left, and I was alone Dove was at the gather and I cried for so long tears stopped coming. I DON’T WANT TO DO THIS. I'm so terrible and I face no pennance for it. But truthfully I desire none.
Is it disgusting of me that I stole his seed…I will have it preserved if he is something rare it might be worth a bit someday.
Dove continues to torment me, she had the cradle moved into my room, I feigned indifference and had the staff box it up and ship it to Ms. Gallant in the morning. I’m not going to cry about this anymore. Dove thinks to beat me on this…the loathsome bitch. I shan’t let her see me cry.
And Master Lucien has been so kind to me. It is almost like before…when I was the only one.
Baxter Grimm was punished…spreading nasty rumors about me and the Bishop. Imagine it a vampire punished because of me. Master am I not valuable? If he will do that for me, he will do more for you. I am going to go thank the archbishop before I am unable to. I love you master, I love you.