A Pinch of Self Assumptions
Still sore abt the 0.4 marks trauma from last nite…Haiz…Had a bad nightmare again which worse of all, I couldn’t remembered wat I dreamt but confirm must be something related to Nelz, as usual…who else could haf been able to stir my life into a messy pile of shit…
Received the mail from HR abt my convertion to part time employment, meaning I will onli work 3 days. Guess I need to find something to filled the time up really soon...Study~Gym~Dance class~Friends~Hope my Life will be more colourful.
I realize he care less abt his studies, dun even remember which days we haf classes, going out aft sch and hang out real late at night just to avoid his parents. Guess its part of adolescence right? I had forgotten he’s only 21, only a young adult facing the real sociality. Sensitive to criticism, peer pressure, temptation and the determination to break free from parents’ endless dictatorship…Even though he hangs out with older people, it doesn’t mean he will grow more mature, maybe physically but, I felt that (self assumptions again ) he’s pushing himself too hard to grow up and be a mature man. I was wrong, wrong to think that he’s exception and special. Age may not be a critical factor of maturity but how well one can cope with the outside world. Probably, he might think that why others couldn’t understand and accept what he’s thinking and what he’s doing, and felt that the world is against him. Most probably, crude advice wouldn’t be taken in as it’s too harsh for his young mind. I misjudged and forgot that he’s still so young…
You can Love coz you wan to, and not bcoz you had to, that I understand. But there’s something called Commitment and Faith which you are still too young to up for it.
eVa