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Did I annoy any of you lovely people with owls? Please accept my apologies. I haven't been functioning correctly all week. I've been making things for other people and being on chat fourteen hours a day. I also haven't been eating properly; it's almost become a sort of afterthought. If only I could do this during the school year

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it's only words, and words are all i have to... er...

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My friend was saying about how there are different kinds of third-culture kids. You're the type where you look different, but think the same. (Sorry about the generalisation; you know what I mean.) I'm the type that looks the same, but thinks different. I may live in the Philippines, but adding on to the complication, I'm Indonesian. I can understand some Tagalog (I have to; I've been living here how long?) but for the most part I don't fit in in the Philippines. I don't fit in in Indonesia either; my Indonesian is getting rusty and apparently ridiculously accented. Among family, I, too, am The American, for many reasons they've pointed out to me.

A big part of it has to do with the language barrier. I'm comfortable with words, especially English words. I learned it in first grade and I guess I never looked back. If I can't express myself properly to people, I feel incredibly unsatisfied (and look incredibly silly). I'm always saying to my family that when I grow up, I want to live in a place where they speak English. For once I want to know exactly what people around me are saying.