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Are all humans horribly gifted at the akward conversation? I have to say I had some absolutly killer ones today. I got this letter in the mail that made me happy because it's about monetary assets and right now they mean something. dollar signs go through my head as I try to find a way out of this city. 550 to go. This is an extremly self-obsessed post but I'm ok with that. You see that's what this is all about, this typing and writing on the internet (but you already knew that). So some locks were shed meaning I've embrassed the change. I guess there's been alot in the last few weeks and I'm just catching up to some of it. I could never go back to school. I can no longer be a highschool drop out. I'm leaving for a province I've never been to in a month and a half and then off of this continent to one that's plagued with poverty and some other hateful things. and I knew it (ha!).
So the other night I was dancing to this awful song and then I went home and listend to it on a mix tape and I thought about the music video for it. Since you've been gone is actually quite a positive song if you think about it. It sucks, even when boys named Ted do it, but it's positive. Growth after a break up? That's good news right? Being able to feel, being over someone? GOOD NEWS! And yet in our perverse culture there's a video floating around of this girl running around an apartment destroying things (and good things like some sweet vinyl and with some sweet moves like breaking a glass coffee table). It's later revealed that this is her ex's and new lover's place. What's with that? What's up? Is this how she's moved on? She destroyed shit and acted like an asshole? Or was she already cool but decided to do it for kicks? I don't get it and it scares me. This is our culture. You can deny it all you want but this is our fodder. You can say you don't follow the mass media bullshit but to be quite honest as soon as it's mainstream culture you're exposed to it. So here we are and apparently we're bitter and want to smash mirrors and rip it up. I think I'll go rip it up myself... with some music loud enough to cover the sounds of the Stampede and fall alseep. Somedays I wish I had a point when I write. Maybe I should start a comic and then I'd feel justified in my lack of content and reason(I'm justifying this one on the shit comics I've encountered, not the sweet ones that may deal with the subject matter of fish and/or communism). online. sprite style. yo.
So the other night I was dancing to this awful song and then I went home and listend to it on a mix tape and I thought about the music video for it. Since you've been gone is actually quite a positive song if you think about it. It sucks, even when boys named Ted do it, but it's positive. Growth after a break up? That's good news right? Being able to feel, being over someone? GOOD NEWS! And yet in our perverse culture there's a video floating around of this girl running around an apartment destroying things (and good things like some sweet vinyl and with some sweet moves like breaking a glass coffee table). It's later revealed that this is her ex's and new lover's place. What's with that? What's up? Is this how she's moved on? She destroyed shit and acted like an asshole? Or was she already cool but decided to do it for kicks? I don't get it and it scares me. This is our culture. You can deny it all you want but this is our fodder. You can say you don't follow the mass media bullshit but to be quite honest as soon as it's mainstream culture you're exposed to it. So here we are and apparently we're bitter and want to smash mirrors and rip it up. I think I'll go rip it up myself... with some music loud enough to cover the sounds of the Stampede and fall alseep. Somedays I wish I had a point when I write. Maybe I should start a comic and then I'd feel justified in my lack of content and reason(I'm justifying this one on the shit comics I've encountered, not the sweet ones that may deal with the subject matter of fish and/or communism). online. sprite style. yo.