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so... David broke up with me... no.. he dumped me... yup... it sux.. gotta say. i didnt take it well... well actually at the time i wasnt that bad... but i closed the door when i left his house and.. well. ya. i wanted to be strong.. i didnt want to make him feel worse... what really sux is that i actually let him in. broke down those walls. and was vulnerable... ugh... after i left i went to kates and then becca came over. then leore. ya i <3 my friends. the worst part is that i actually still care.... like i dont want him to feel bad about it.. ugh... but then of course i am kinda mad. i mean what kind of a girl steals another girls boyfriend if she already has a boyfriend... i mean of course it wasnt all her. no he did it.. how could he do this to me.. idk.. not to me... blah... it just... ugh sucks.... i'm just... sad... blah... i mean i shouldnt be so sad some people have it much worse then i do. like the parents of the little boy who died in the plain crash and people who have it really bad. but still... i'm just... sad... but strong i'll be fine.. it'll just take some time... i just wish i could get rid of this head ache.... i've been crying so much it just wont go away... i really wish i could get rid of this feeling... i thought i was fine and could get through school fine today... but well.... i'm such a baby... oh my gosh.. i just cant get him out of my head... ugh.. i cant deal with this...no no i can... i just have to... cry it out. and then i'll be fine.... i will... i'll be fine... i cant think about this anymore...
<3 amanda
<3 amanda