The beginning to a great journey.
I am believing I am going to start this entire livejournal experience I am diving into as journey related, updating it as far as my life in love goes, this will be a journey I am not taking alone. I will not only be taking the readers of this journal on a journey through my personal love life (and possibly my personal life) but I will also be taking the one girl who has risen me from the ashes of despair and rebuilt me as a stronger man, stronger son, stronger lover and a stronger designer. That girl who's name you will find out in a little while came into my life 6 years ago, I was 15 years old, just a lonesome cancer survivor that was in and about chatrooms trying to finding someone interesting to chat too. That girl back then and now and then today calls me her 'pet' I called her 'master' just as a game, to make us both giggle and make us feel special. Back then she lived in Michigan, I believe Grayling, MI. I lived in Hinckley, MN. I immediately connected to her, she was like the best friend I've ever had or will have (though I didn't see it at the time). We talked about anything and everything, from the moon to the dirt, to our own personal struggles and upsights. We bonded like glue and paper basically over the next few months, then I never heard from her, for like 2 years. During this time, I had various online flings, none of them worked, some left me hating everything. 1 actual relationship, that lasted 3 months to Nikki. Then after those 2 years, mysteriously my best friend came back into my life, I was so shocked I was like "MASTER!!!!!!!" she was like "PET!!!!!!" if she was in person I would of ran up to her and gave her the worlds biggest hug. It was like so euphoric to have her back into my life (I secretly had a crush on her, yet I wouldn't let her know this till later). I then found out she moved to Daytona Beach, FL w/ her parents that why I didn't hear from her for such a long period of time. I didn't care at the time, I just had her back. Then she went away again and I was saddened, I soon got over my sadness w/ girlfriends and such, other (so-called) friends. Didn't really seem to mind that she went away again, I guess I got used to her going away and I being just where-ever I was without her. Had a good girlfriend Katie at the time she just came back into my life, was great for the time it lasted and she was gone again. Katie and I didn't last for reasons we both know and understand, yet I didn't seem whole. My friend came back and forth into my life, staying and then leaving, until after I moved out of my parents house, and had a horrible experience with my ex-girlfriend Laura. She came online and asked if she could call me, I said sure! Her house phone is all she had, and it sucked really bad, was like a cell phone constantly in and out. It was really hard to carry a normal conversation on the phone at the time. At the time her friend Alicia was over her house, or something, not really sure still today because it doesn't matter. Alicia got on the phone and asked if I wanted to date her friend, I was like scared because I had a crush on her, she was in and out of my life for awhile, I had a fear of "teen" year olds because of Laura, and I was still confused on so many levels that I gave the "teen" fear excuse to Alicia and that was the end of that interrogation. Had a slight stint w/ my roommates best friend Danielle.. wasn't really anything, I felt for her, but she was too far away for me to reach. Then I moved out of my own apartment and to my brothers apartment near right after Christmas 2006. My best friend and I still in contact at that time, she recently got a cell phone for christmas, and we exchanged numbers and we text messaged back and forth for hours it seems, just talking. It was during that duration almost at the start of 2007 that we had cute nicknames, I called her 'babydoll' and she called me "shuga muffin" I still had a crush on her really bad, and decided i'd pursue the entire thing, and make slight hints and just get her as "mine". At first she was skiddish because of personal reasons, but I soon I guess made those personal reasons fade out of the epic picture and on January 6th, 2007 at about 10:00PM CST I took a few hints she was throwing at me, and asked her ever so sweetly to be mine. As you can guess, she said "yes". At that moment Crystal Denise Callahan came into my life not only as my best friend, but as my lover, and my best lover i've ever had. Our journey does not stop here, it has continued, and it will continue because we both feel that this one is for real, this is all we want, all we need, all we will continue to strive for and be committed to each other forever. Eternity is looking optimistic with my babydoll by my side.