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haven't updated in forever. luke and i are broken up right now. it's super hard on me but i feel less pressured to do some things, in a way. lately i've felt like i've been forced to do things i wasn't ready to do (ie, move out within a few months from now to live with him).
sure, i want to live with him.....eventually. i don't want to force myself to be financially stable to move out...i want it to be the other way around. i love him more than anything but i just don't know how things will work out this time. he needs to work on a lot of things before i can consider getting back with him. i've had my feelings stomped on one too many times by him.
i need a job. fucking bad. it seems as if i'm never satisfied where i work and it's mostly because i don't give anywhere a chance before i just quit at it. i'm afraid of failing so why not bail out before i have a chance to do so? that's such a bad theory to live by..but i don't know anything better. i need to get my shit on track.
i want to go to bartending school and do something with that but that goes along with the same theory that i don't think i'll be good enough at it. sooo.. i needed to vent. but yeah, i'm done. see ya'll.
sure, i want to live with him.....eventually. i don't want to force myself to be financially stable to move out...i want it to be the other way around. i love him more than anything but i just don't know how things will work out this time. he needs to work on a lot of things before i can consider getting back with him. i've had my feelings stomped on one too many times by him.
i need a job. fucking bad. it seems as if i'm never satisfied where i work and it's mostly because i don't give anywhere a chance before i just quit at it. i'm afraid of failing so why not bail out before i have a chance to do so? that's such a bad theory to live by..but i don't know anything better. i need to get my shit on track.
i want to go to bartending school and do something with that but that goes along with the same theory that i don't think i'll be good enough at it. sooo.. i needed to vent. but yeah, i'm done. see ya'll.