revelation!
hmm, i just had an interesting conversation with a friend tonight. it just dawned on me that i had been feeling somewhat like how she was feeling. i mean, i used to have fun and go out, and drink without a care in the world. now, i mostly stay in and, i've stopped drinking(note*i don't regret this part). i just felt like i wasn't having any fun anymore, and i just didn't know how to get out of that rut. i also felt like i became this boring person cuz i wasn't going out to clubs, dancing, drinking and all that. maybe that's not the case though, maybe i've just grown out of that phase and grown up...i don't really know at this point.
well, i think when i did start to go to clubs and drink and all that, which was before i was 21 yrs. old-:/, it felt good cuz i dunno i felt cool? i mean, i know a lot of teenagers like to get high and/or drink because they think it's cool, and it makes them feel good, but once u get older and wiser, u realize u were just being an idiot. i mean, u can't go through life always gettin' high and/or drinkin' b/c it's just not cool to do all those things. is it really cool to look like a complete retard and do things u normally wouldn't do? Some people think that they NEED to do drugs or they NEED to drink to be able to fit in or be comfortable, and if that's the case, then THEY do have a problem. By the time u know it, you won't be able to do anything without takin' a hit or gettin'a buzz, and you'll become dependent on the things that could really mess u up in the future. i'm just glad that i never became an alcoholic or anything like that because it's just not worth it. sometimes, the coolest thing u can do is the right thing. just something to think about.
also, if your so-called friends don't agree with this lifestyle, then maybe they're not the type of friends that you NEED in your life. luckily, i have good friends. ;)
i may not regret the no more drinking policy, but i do miss the clubs where i got my boogey on, but it's just that there's not really any good clubs here. :X that's why i'm movin' to cali. JK-haha. well, i would like to experience the clubs there, but that's not my main reason for moving. i just need to get out of my "comfort zone," and just try something different and new. I've mostly done the right things and played it safe in my life, so this will be a pretty big challenge for me. Jax has been my home for years and years and always will be my home away from home, but i just feel like if i don't do this now, then i'll never be able to do it. Maybe some people don't understand my need to do this, and that's ok. this is just something i have to do for myself, and sometimes, it's okay to be selfish...hopefully, i'll be able to meet some good people there that are just like me.:) ok, not just like me cuz that's just creepy.
well, i think when i did start to go to clubs and drink and all that, which was before i was 21 yrs. old-:/, it felt good cuz i dunno i felt cool? i mean, i know a lot of teenagers like to get high and/or drink because they think it's cool, and it makes them feel good, but once u get older and wiser, u realize u were just being an idiot. i mean, u can't go through life always gettin' high and/or drinkin' b/c it's just not cool to do all those things. is it really cool to look like a complete retard and do things u normally wouldn't do? Some people think that they NEED to do drugs or they NEED to drink to be able to fit in or be comfortable, and if that's the case, then THEY do have a problem. By the time u know it, you won't be able to do anything without takin' a hit or gettin'a buzz, and you'll become dependent on the things that could really mess u up in the future. i'm just glad that i never became an alcoholic or anything like that because it's just not worth it. sometimes, the coolest thing u can do is the right thing. just something to think about.
also, if your so-called friends don't agree with this lifestyle, then maybe they're not the type of friends that you NEED in your life. luckily, i have good friends. ;)
i may not regret the no more drinking policy, but i do miss the clubs where i got my boogey on, but it's just that there's not really any good clubs here. :X that's why i'm movin' to cali. JK-haha. well, i would like to experience the clubs there, but that's not my main reason for moving. i just need to get out of my "comfort zone," and just try something different and new. I've mostly done the right things and played it safe in my life, so this will be a pretty big challenge for me. Jax has been my home for years and years and always will be my home away from home, but i just feel like if i don't do this now, then i'll never be able to do it. Maybe some people don't understand my need to do this, and that's ok. this is just something i have to do for myself, and sometimes, it's okay to be selfish...hopefully, i'll be able to meet some good people there that are just like me.:) ok, not just like me cuz that's just creepy.