through the darkest night, His light will shine (God is good)
I have nothing to give this world, I've realised.
last night I shared with my cell bout how this year has been mundane and thoroughly harsh and realistic on me. there were no screaming highs or scrambling lows (only heartwrenchingly painful ones) and how often the highs came in quiet disguise, slipped silently into the fast realities of my hectic semesters. in fact, looking back, it almost seems predictable that all the fond memories that I'm keeping with me from this year are the terrible lows that brought about so much anger, grief, and growth. there were no fireworks, this 2011. there were hints of a rainbow peeking out occasionally - and almost always had I have to beg it to appear. and also, I've learnt to stop looking for answers. i've learnt, in a fashionably defeated triumph of not forcing my chin to stay up all the time; but to will it not to fall any lower.
I believe that there is a reason for everything. and a lesson behind anything. I am not complaining about this year though, hardly. it was definitely one of the most trying years in recent times, but I'm glad I'm walking away with a clear head and a lighter heart. Thank you Father, for my family. and for S. and for all those who got tossed onto shore and remained stubbornly in my life. i love you guys
last night I shared with my cell bout how this year has been mundane and thoroughly harsh and realistic on me. there were no screaming highs or scrambling lows (only heartwrenchingly painful ones) and how often the highs came in quiet disguise, slipped silently into the fast realities of my hectic semesters. in fact, looking back, it almost seems predictable that all the fond memories that I'm keeping with me from this year are the terrible lows that brought about so much anger, grief, and growth. there were no fireworks, this 2011. there were hints of a rainbow peeking out occasionally - and almost always had I have to beg it to appear. and also, I've learnt to stop looking for answers. i've learnt, in a fashionably defeated triumph of not forcing my chin to stay up all the time; but to will it not to fall any lower.
I believe that there is a reason for everything. and a lesson behind anything. I am not complaining about this year though, hardly. it was definitely one of the most trying years in recent times, but I'm glad I'm walking away with a clear head and a lighter heart. Thank you Father, for my family. and for S. and for all those who got tossed onto shore and remained stubbornly in my life. i love you guys