The Plague Sequel 31-32 (Taec's POV)
Title: The Plague Sequel 31-32 (Taec's POV)
Pairing: TaecWoo,OC
Rating: M
Summary: Captured by strangers and taken to a mansion, Jang Wooyoung begins his new life with a man named Ok Taecyeon.
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I watched Wooyoungs cute little bum as he rushed towards the door.
"My nam-phyon.." I whispered as I headed towards Jaesun.
"Hey baby. Hungry?" I asked Jaesun as he stared up at me. "No crying?" I asked.
Jaesun continued staring at me with tiredness on his face and eyes.
"Hungry?" I asked lifting up the his bottle.
The crying suddenly began and I smiled and laughed as I picked Jaesun up quickly.
"Hurry up Youngie. I think he wants you." I said heading for the door.
"Hi...umm are you some of Taecyeons friends?" I heard Wooyoung ask from the door.
'My friends?' I thought.
"Hey who is it?" I yelled from the kit hen as I headed towards the door.
"EunKyung..." Wooyoung said.
As soon as I heard the name in Wooyoungs thoughts, not even when he said it, I rushed.
Holding Jaesun tight, when I reached the door, Wooyoung was gone.
"Wooyoung!" I yelled loudly.
Jaesun immediately started crying.
I looked down at him and put him on my shoulder as I patted his back and quickly ran outside without thinking.
"Wooyoung!" I growled and screamed.
"Wooyoung!"
"Dammit Wooyoung!"
"I'm going to kill that woman!" I yelled marching back into the house.
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"Just calm down and tell us what happened Taecyeon."
I ignored my dad and handed Jaesun to my mom.
"I'm going to kill her. I've warned her not to touch him." I growled.
"Wooyoung." mom said.
"They have him." my dad said.
"I can't hear his thoughts. I'm completely useless. I can't sense where he is. I don't know where he is. We should of bonded earlier." I said pacing around fast.
"I thought I taught you better than that." dad said quickly. "Don't stand here and think about what you can not do. Do something if you don't want to loose that boy."
I stopped amd stared at him.
He looked angry and I felt angry.
I turned to mom and she sadly smiled.
"Go...I'll take care of Jaesun." she said.
I nodded and quickly headed straight for any contact to Nichkhun.
'Dammit why is he the only one?' I thought angrily.
But I realized it's the only way.
He can sense where Wooyoung will be but not exactly until Wooyoung calls out his name.
"You need to call out for Nichkhun." I instantly thought as I reached Nichkhun with other thoughts.
I didn't wait for long before Nichkhun arrived at the house.
"What the hell happened!" he instantly asked.
I haven't heard him curse in a long time. He only does when he is super angry.
"Your supposed to take care of him! Watch him!" he continued to say.
"Shutup and try. I can't loose him." I said angrily showing teeth I would never shown unless feeding or fighting.
"You cant loose him? I cant loose him! We can't loose him!" he yelled. "What the hell happened."
"I turned around for only a few seconds. It's EunKyung! I'm going to kill her." I growled.
"I'm sensing only a little but but I'm not too sure. I can't sense him properly....I haven't been around him for long and he hasn't called my name yet." Nichkhun said.
"It's the only way to find him right? He needs to call your name." I said pausing.
I saw the smirk on Nichkhuns face.
"I already told him to call out to me when he's in trouble." he said. "He promised me he would." he continued.
"The only reason is because I do not have your power and we have not bonded yet." I said angrily.
"Do you really want to fight while he's still missing?" Nichkhun asked.
I couldn't keep my head straight.
I wanted to tear someone up. The rage inside me wanted to kill someone and if he wasn't here to help find my baby then I could kill Nichkhun."
"Keep your feelings to yourself. We have to work together in order for this to work." he said.
I turned away from him, tightening my fist as I thought of what my father said and what Wooyoung would think if we found him and he found out that I hurt Nichkhun.
'Call Nichkhun.' I thought in defeat. 'Wooyoung call Nichkhuns name.' I thought again hoping he would hear me wherever he was because I couldn't hear him at all.
I tried not think about us not bonding because that is the only reason why he will not hear me.
"Dammit!" I screamed that and few other curse words as my fists tightened more.
"Have you sensed him?!?" I growled angrily.
Nichkhun didn't reply and I quickly turned to him just as two cars came and parked in front of the house.
I hurried to it but paused as I spotted Wooyoungs friend and her brother with his girlfriend.
"Taecyeon-sshi? Whas wrong?" the girl asked me as she got out of the car quickly.
Her brother followed her with his little girlfriend.
I didn't reply her. If I opened my mouth I would growl and probably scare her off.
I don't want Wooyoung to come back and find out I scared his little friend.
"Wooyoung is gone. He's been kidnapped." Nichkhun replied for me.
I tightened my fist harder.
I really want to hit him hard but I can't.
"What happened!?" the girl asked hysterically.
"Have you sensed him yet!" I yelled ignoring her.
Nichkhun ignored me and I turned and looked away as felt my eyes start turning.
I haven't been this angry since...that woman left me.
"The door bell rang, Woo opened it and the next thing he knows...Wooyoung is gone." Nichkhun calmly said.
"Can you sense him!" I yelled again, coming up to Nichkhun fast as I grabbed his shoulder
"Taecyeon-sshi!" Jeshka yelled coming for me when her brother stopped her.
"His eyes..." I heard her brothers girlfriend whisper.
I must look terrible if she is talking about my eyes because she's seen them when they are normally red.
"Your becoming too angry. Stop before you hurt someone." Nichkhun said.
'I just can't calm down.' I thought.
Nichkhun struggled only a bit to pull my hands off his shoulder.
This is only because I have been turned longer than him that I am stronger. He knows this too.
I turned around and tried to will my self to calm down.
I turned back minutes later.
"Do you sense him." I tried to calmly ask.
'I don't want anymore problems with him right now. I need to think of Wooyoung!' I yelled to myself in thought as I waited for Nichkhuns reply as calmly as I could.
"Nichkhun...." I growled quickly loosing my patience.
"I sense him." Nichkhun said.
He disappeared right after and I went straight after him.
The only person I didn't want to call. I didn't want to see or talk to ever.
But Wooyoung is gone and I need to find him. I can't find him by myself, I know that, because we haven't bonded.
If only we could hurry and bond.
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We stopped in a deserted dark alley way with tons of warehouse building after building.
"I sense him everywhere. I don't know where exact-"
"Then try harder!" I yelled. "I can't loose him!"
I couldn't even wait for him to respond before I hurriedly started in the first building.
"Wooyoung.."
"Wooyoung!" I yelled.
'Stay the way you are!' I yelled inside my head.
'Wooyoung. Wooyoung. Wooyoung I'm here...stay with me. Call Nichkhuns name." I thought as I started hearing and seeing a faint bit of his thoughts.
I stopped for a little bit when I heard him scream.
If I really did have a heart it would have dropped.
"Wooyoung!" I continued yelling,
"Your not the only one that loves him, that wants to find him!" Nichkhun yelled towards me.
"Let's not-"
"Keep yelling out his name and they will hear us and run away. The people that came and took him...they were one of our kind...any wrong move and-"
"Shutup!" I yelled.
I didn't want to hear it.
"Nothing is going to happen. We are going to find him. We can't loose him Nichkhun. I can't loose him." I said turning away.
A short silence passed between us.
"Are you..."
"No...I...I really love him Nichkhun. I really really love him." I said quickly stopping him from asking his question of whether or not I was crying.
I wasn't cry. I was just really frustrated.
"Wait." Nichkhun quickly said.
The scream I heard earlier ran through my head once again and I turned around everywhere.
I've never in my life been lost like I felt at the moment.
"Third building to the left!" Nichkhun suddenly yelled.
I dashed straight for the building and as I got closer I could hear him.
I heard my Wooyoung so clearly.
"Wooyoung.." I whispered breaking the door down fast.
The first person I caught was EunKyung.
I ran towards her in vengeance and revenge but before I could grab her Nichkhun screamed.
"Leave her! We are here to save Wooyoung!" he yelled.
It was the only reason why I left her.
It's not about her anymore, it's about Wooyoung.
I gave her the hardest, mean, and anger filled stare I ever gave anyone and dashed for my Youngies pain filled screaming which made me want to tear someone apart.
"EunKyung! No! No!" I heard Wooyoung scream.
It seemed as if my body was going slow.
I heard his voice I wanted to do something fast but the more I ran, the more it seemed I was going slower.
"No! Taec! Taec! Taecyeon! Please stop!"
His last scream of please stop and I had a guy by the neck twisting it hard, forgetting that Wooyoung was laying right below us.
The guy screamed in terror and I almost killed him if it wasn't for Nichkhun.
I almost killed the guy thay was hovering over my Wooyoung. He couldn't get up and I watched in anger as the other guy helped him and ran away.
"Put your anger away Taec. You know if Wooyoung knew you kille-"
"Shutup..." I whispered interrupting Nichkhun as I stooped down low besides Wooyoung.
"I'm sorry.." Wooyoung whispered before his eyes fully closed.
"Wooyoung!" I yelled picking him up and fixing his cloths as best as possible.
"Here." Nichkhun said.
A jacket was shoved into my face and I took it and gently wrapped it around the still shaking limp body of Wooyoung.
I picked him up slowly and turned to face Nichkhun.
"I will be goin back. Tell me when he gets up." Nichkhun said.
"Wait...don't...don't tell him what happened today. Don't tell him how he looked even if he asks you." I said.
"I love him too." Nichkhun said.
I didn't reply. My thoughts focused back on the lip body in my arms hoping he was okay.
"I can't promise you anything." Nichkhun finally said before leaving.
I watched as he left and Wooyoungs screams waltzed back into my head.
His past.
The past he didn't know, hid from himself.
I finally know.
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Wooyoung laid down still, his breathing uneasy as I stooped down on him.
I gently touched his face and whispered for him to be okay.
"T..Taec.." he murmured.
"I'm right here. I won't leave you. I'm right here." I quickly said getting up straight.
Wooyoung smiled and I sadly smiled back.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry." he started apologizing, his smile fading into a frown.
"Don't. Woo.... Go to sleep. I promise you, I won't let anyone touch you ever again." I said as I gently stroked him on the cheek and gave him a kiss on the forehead.
"You came - I'm sorry I'm acting like such a-"
"Go to sleep Wooyoung." I quickly interrupted him again.
I just wanted him to get sleep and not think about whatever he remembers.
It will damage him.
If he remembers it will definitely damage him more than he was when I met him.
I don't even want to tell him I know because I know that will break him too.
Wooyoung smiled and nodded as he closed his eyes.
"I love you Taec." he whispered.
"I love you too baby.." I said.
His eyes closed before that though and I knew he didn't hear me.
"Don't remember." I whispered.
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A few of us gathered in Wooyoungs room as we waited for him to wake up.
I saw him flinch first and open his eyes.
"Lower the lights. He's awake." I quickly said.
The lights lowered and I scooted closer to him.
"Wai...wait." Wooyoung stuttered.
"Woo? Wooyoung?" I said wrapping my arms around him tight.
"Wait...please...no..ple-"
Wooyoung begged and it made me not know what to do but keep hugging him.
"Woo it's me Taec." I said trying to get his attention.
"No...No..Don't touch me." Wooyoung said struggling.
It hurts
I can't feel much of feelings sometimes anymore but I definitely feel it when Wooyoung says or does something that hurts.
"Wooyoung." the girl named Jeshka said after a long silence.
"Umma? Umma help. No.." Wooyoung screamed.
"Woo, snap out of it please!" his friend MyungCha screamed.
"No.Let me go!" Wooyoung yelled "Let me go!"
He continued struggling and I began to start letting him go.
The signs of marks already started appearing on his arms as he struggled.
If I continued holding him, I would hurt him or he would hurt himself.
"Appa." Jaesun said getting closer to Wooyoung as I completely let go.
Wooyoung completly froze and stared into nothing.
I picked Jaesun up from my mothers hand and set him in front of Wooyoung.
"A..ppa.." Jaesun said again.
"J..Jae?" Wooyoung stuttered.
"Appppaa!" Jaesun yelled as he started crying.
Wooyoung looked the baby straight in the eye as Jaesun held his arms out.
Wooyoung took Jaesun and gave him a warm hug.
"Jae.." he whispered.
"Ppa...Appa.." Jaesun cried as Wooyoung hugged him tight.
"I'm sorry...I...I'm...s-sorry." he started apologizing to Jaesun as he closed his eyes tight and then opened them.
Wooyoungs eyes suddenly went wide as he looked at everyone.
His cheeks started turning pink when I put a hand on his shoulder and dismissed everyone from the room.
Wooyoung turned towards me and a look of recognition appeared on his face as if he just realized who was holding him.
"Taec." he mumbled.
"Are you okay?" I asked. "Does anything hurt? Are you alright?"
Wooyoung just stared at me hard with thoughts of wanting to touch me, to feel the chill from my body, the memories...he wanted to forget them.
"Wooyoung..." I whispered.
Before I could stop him, Wooyoung pulled me into a kiss and I quickly called out Chansung to bring either one of the girls that Wooyoung is friends with to get Jaesun.
I stopped Wooyoung only a little bit until Jaesun was really gone.
The moment of wonder whether he will really remember all he is doing ran through my head instantly as Wooyoung pulled me close to him and kissed me.
Not an innocent kiss like I usually get but a sloppy kiss. Everywhere he found, Wooyoung kissed me.
I'm not saying I don't like his kiss but the only reason he's doing any of this is because he feels disgusted with himself.
He wants to forget and he is using sex with me to forget.
I can't let him do that.
"Wooyoung? It's fine, it's fine don't push yourself to-"
"No. Let me...let me..." he interrupted me quick.
He didn't even sound like he knew what he was talking about.
The thoughts of him wanting to forget ran through his head again and I wanted to stop him then but before I could, he pushed me down.
I let him because even though I wanted him to stop...I'm a man...Wooyoung rarely never takes the lead.
It was a struggle in my mind whether to stop him because he's not doing it for love or let him continue because he never does it unless I initiate it.
I allowed Wooyoung to continue unprofessionally kissing me everywhere telling myself if it got too far I would stop him.
He began unbuttoning my shirt and I let him but as soon as he finished and started with my pants, I stopped him by grabbing both his hands.
"Ow." Wooyoung winced.
I instantly let go as I apologized.
"But no more Woo. Go back to-"
"No!" Wooyoung screamed desperately; interrupting me. "Please. Please let me...please." he said continuing the kisses.
I continued stopping him a little at first but with he look he kept giving me...I let him continue.
"Wooyoung? Don't cry." I whispered as I saw tears in his small fox-like eyes.
"I'm not. I'm not. I'm a man. I'm not a child. I'm not crying. I promise." Wooyoung said wiping his eyes.
"Woo, no." I whispered.
"Please.Please. I'm sorry...let me..let me.." he kept on repeating and giving me hurtful hunger filled eyes as he took a hold of my manhood.
I paused at the instant.
Wooyoung never rarely touches me there. I believe he believes it's disgusting.
I didn't stop him but as soon as I felt him lowering himself down I got up quickly a little bit yelling at him.
"Woo! Your going to hurt your-"
"Hngg.."
Wooyoungs painful gasp surrounded my ears as he lowered himself onto me with no preparation.
Nothing.
I also felt it and if I feel it it means that he feels it and it is definitely hurting him.
'No time.'
'No time.'
His thoughts kept on running through my head.
Ignoring his pain as his hands shook my chest Wooyoungs thoughts continued, wanting to forget his memories, saying he had no time, he needed to do it quick.
"Woo.." I growled, unable to control my thoughts into stopping him with me inside of him as he started moving, covering his face with his bangs.
Sweat poured from Wooyoungs face and I knew he would break any second.
"Let me help." I said gently grabbing his waist to at least help him if he wouldn't listen.
"No. No. Ahh.." Wooyoung groaned as I gently started thrusting very slowly so as to not hurt him.
"I'm- I'm-" he started stuttering.
"I'll help." I said taking a hold of Wooyoungs manhood as I started stroking him.
He fell onto my chest and almost curled up as he continued moving up and down on me.
I also helped him by keeping myself in control and going gently...or at least trying to go gently.
"More. More." Wooyoung suddenly pleaded.
"No. Your already at your limit. I'm only doing this because you want it. I want you to rest after this Woo-" I started saying when he interrupted me this time with a yell.
"More!" he screamed.
"Your not going to forget about anything with this!" I yelled as I completely stopped.
Suddenly all movement stopped as Wooyoung looked at me with a shocked face.
"I love you Woo but I won't continue this if you are using me to forget...to feel a pain that will cover that feeling." I slowly said.
Wooyoung began shaking his head fiercely.
"Tell me that's not what you are doing." I said taking a hold of his shoulders as I tried to turn him to look at me.
He continued shaking his head.
"Woo!" I yelled angrily.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Please. I can't. It hurts." Wooyoung pleaded with me and I felt disgusted with myself then.
I used him to my advantage because I couldn't stop my perverted self.
Wooyoung is hurting bad inside and I let him do something that hurt him more without stopping him earlier.
'I'm a terrible person.' I thought as I gently pulled out of Wooyoung.
He gasped and closed his eyes tight and I felt even more terrible.
"Go to sleep. I'll come clean you up later." I said not showing my face.
"Taec. Taec. I'm sorry. Taec." Wooyoung kept repeating my name but I ignored him, unable to show my shameful face.
How could I take advantage of his suffering.
I left the room quietly and hoped Wooyoung would forgive me.
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I sensed it as Wooyoung woke up from his long sleep since what happened earlier.
I made sure to clean him well and redress while he was asleep.
"Wooyoung." I said.
"Ppa.." Jaesun said after me.
I decided to keep Jaesun with me so I wouldn't even think of doing anything more to hurt Wooyoung any more than he was.
Wooyoung quickly turned to look at the both of us hovering over him.
I sadly smiled at him as we caught eyes but he quickly looked away.
'I can't. I can't.'
I could hear Wooyoungs thoughts very clear. He was remembering the memories once again.
"We've missed you. You've been sleeping for the a long time. I'm glad this time it wasn't weeks." I said trying to get his mind off of the emerging memories.
He stayed quiet.
"Woo? Is your body okay? Does anything hurt?" I asked as I sat next to him with Jaesun in my arms.
"Ppa..." Jaesun whined.
Wooyoung turned back to us at the sound of Jaesuns voice.
'I don't deserve you two.' he thought.
"Wooyoung." I said.
He lightly smiled and tried getting up.
I set Jaesun down and tried to help him but he pulled away quickly.
"I'm sorry did I hurt you?" I quickly asked.
Wooyoung shook his head no and held his hands out for Jaesun.
"Appa.." Jaesun squealed as I picked him up and handed him to Wooyoung.
"Hi." Wooyoung said to the little boy.
I watched as he smiled and talked to Jaesun.
I felt a little jealous.
Jaesun giggled and pointed at me. "Appa." he said again.
"You finally have it right. Appa." Wooyoung said nodding his head.
"Hey baby? Want anything to eat?" I asked.
Wooyoung turned to me for a quick few seconds and shook his head no.
'You should hate me. EunKyung was right.' he thought.
"Wooyoung!" I screamed, apologizing as I noticed I scared them both.
Wooyoung looked at me wide eyed and I looked away ashamed, hoping he didn't remember what happened only earlier when I took advantage.
"I don't deserve you. Do you know how much you and Jae mean to me? Do you know how much I went through to find you? I had to call Nichkhun - since we haven't bonded yet I needed his help. We could only wait until you said his name. Those long hours. I felt like killing someone. I missed you so much baby."
He looked like he wanted to cry but was willing himself not to.
"Woo?" I said.
"I'll go take a shower." Wooyoung quickly said, ignoring my eyes as he put Jaesun down and got up.
He declined my offer to help him and I watched as he struggled his way to the bathroom, limping.
I could only curse myself.
The door shut and I frowned and looked at Jaesun.
I sat with Jaesun for what seemed like hours as I listened to Wooyoung's suffering thoughts.
Finally I waited until Jaesun fell asleep to put him down, get up, and walk to the bathroom door.
"Youngie? Are you okay?" I asked softly.
The thoughts in his head became more aggressive and I fought to not break down the door and pull him into a tight hug.
"Why did you do this to me. You were the only family left from my past. Why?"
I heard Wooyoungs whisper and I frowned and tried hard to wait.
Finally after a little while, the door opened.
I stood in front of Wooyoung blocking all his exits.
I couldn't hear his earlier whisper but I knew something is wrong.
"Jae?" Wooyoung said trying to look around my arms.
"Sleeping." I said.
"Huh?" Wooyoung said looking a bit shocked and panicked.
Thoughts of EunKyung and having to find something ran through his head.
I wondered exactly what needed to be found.
"Woo? Stop thinking about her. Please forget her. She might be gone but she's still hurting you." I said.
Wooyoung took one quick glance at me before trying to make his way out of the bathroom.
I blocked him in all the ways I could.
My arms crossed and I frowned and stood right in front of him giving him a hard stare.
"It's cold." Wooyoung suddenly said.
I cant say his words didn't strike something in me.
I always feel bad because I hurt him all the time. Even with my coldness, he can get sick because I am too cold.
My only insecurity, he named it. He knows it.
I made a straight face and moved closer to him.
I watched as Wooyoung stepped back.
"It's cold." he said again.
"Your avoiding me." I said trying to touch him when he stepped back again.
Our eyes caught and Wooyoung quickly looked away.
"Please. I'm freezing." he said.
We both stood for a long time before I couldn't take it anymore.
I took a deep sigh and moved out of the way.
"My parents. Something came up. They went back for a little bit. They will be back when it is time. The bonding." I said watching a towel wrapped waist walk farther away from me.
I saw Wooyoung stiffen as he ignored me and didn't reply.
'I can't let you touch something so dirty.' he thought.
"Dirty? Woo? Are you talking about-"
"Nothing." Wooyoung said quickly interrupted me.
'He needed to know. He needs to know that I know.' I thought.
"I know." I said.
He quickly stopped and turned towards me.
'What does he know?' his thoughts rang through my head.
"I know about your childhood. Your past. I saw.We finally found your documents too." I said.
Wooyoung screamed in his thoughts trying to deny that I knew.
"Please Woo nothing is your fault you-"
"It's nothing!" he quickly said interrupting me.
"Woo-"
"Nothing!" he screamed.
I wanted to grab and take hold of him. Shake him until he understood that I didn't care what happened to him in his past.
The room suddenly became quiet.
I watched Wooyoung as he changed into some cloths.
He started looking around. He also knew I knew somehow was wrong but of course Wooyoung didn't tell me.
The silence consumed us until the rest of the day passed away.
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I sat on the bed, straight in front of Wooyoung with my hands clasped together tight as I stared at the door that suddenly opened and then to the person that was set down right in front of me.
The door closed shut as soon as Chansung set Wooyoung down.
It has been two weeks of silence between us.
Wooyoung's eyes closed tight and in his head he counted to ten before taking a deep breath and opening his eyes.
My eyes turned to his and it seemed like for the rest of the day I sat and he stood as we stared at each other.
I started talking to Wooyoung, not with my voice or by thought, but by looking at him hard.
He ignored that too though.
A couple of more minutes passed as Wooyoung lowered his head and took a step back.
'Don't go.' I thought.
"Don't" I said hearing my own hoarse voice.
I needed to feed but we haven't even looked at each other in weeks.
I looked at him again and tried to stop listening to his thoughts of disgust for himself.
Silence passed and before I could say anything or do anything, Wooyoung turned around to leave.
Quickly I got up and said three words.
"I Love You."
Wooyoung stopped straight in his trail and started violently shaking his head.
"I love you Wooyoung." I said again.
We both stood for who knows how long.
"I'm - sorry...I'm not acting like a man right now." Wooyoung said.
His voice sounded like he was crying.
Before he could fall to the floor I quickly caught him and caught sight of his tears too.
"I'm sorry. They just won't stay - I need to.."
I stopped Wooyoung from his words as i squeezed him tight in a constricting hug.
I knew he couldn't breathe but I wanted him to feel how he was making me feel.
I'm - I'm sorry...you must be...very hungry." he said.
"I've missed you." I replied him.
"I'm sorry." Wooyoung said.
"Stop apologizing." I said.
"But - But you don't know Taec. I'm...I'm very...I'm not clean." Wooyoung said lowering his head.
"Wooyoung!" I almost yelled.
It startled him because I felt him jump lightly.
"If I thought you were dirty would I want to marry you?" I said trying not to scream.
"But-"
"Woo! I love you! I love you so much and whatever you've done I don't care because I've done worse. I'm worried you will leave me and I can't live without you so.....so please stop avoiding me." I said.
I watched as Wooyoung lowered his head.
I thought he finally calmed down but a few seconds later his head rose up quick and he burst into a scream.
"I lost the ring Taec! I lost the ring you gave me and - and you want to know more? I have been with other men. I lied when you asked. More than 10 more than 20 Taec, it could be worse! I don't know. I don't remember - I even came from the slumps...the part of the city no one ever....I'm just dirty! I'm not someone you should-" Wooyoung paused in his yell.
I didn't say anything but pulled the shorter guy into a rough kiss.
I never kissed him like how I was at the moment.
My anger overfilled me and took over for a few minutes.
Wooyoung tried to pull away and I knew the only reason was because he needed some air.
I pulled away and watched him as he tried to catch some breaths.
"How many times? How many times do I have to tell you that I love you! Whatever you've done Woo - It was in the past and the Woo I know now is the future Woo. My future husband..." I paused and smiled. "...Jaesuns umma." I said.
"Hey!" Wooyoung screamed with tears still in his eyes.
I started laughing hard and caught his smile too.
"I told you to stop calling me that." he said pouting.
"Yes. This is the Woo I know. Please stop avoiding me." I said stopping my laughs but smiling wide.
Wooyoungs smile disappeared for a short time before returning.
He started talking.
"The memories...I want them gone. They won't let me be happ-"
I interrupted him quick with a hug.
"Then replace them with the happy memories of Jae, me, Jeshka...everyone who cares about you in this house." I mumbled into his ear.
"I...am...I am trying too. I'll try to for you. I'm sorry for the way I've acted Taec." he said.
"I'm not mad. I am still a bit hurt but you promise no more avoiding me." I said.
"I can't anymore. I can't avoid you Taecyeon, I love you so much and it hurts. It hurts so much that now I know what I did I feel like I don't deserve you at-"
"Shut-up." I said interrupting him quick.
Wooyoung nodded and sighed. "I'll try for you." he said.
"I have a surprise for you tomorrow...the library...can you meet me there?" I said.
All the time what was bothering him since the bathroom incident was the ring.
I wanted to get him a new one anyway.
"The library." Wooyoung said.
I suddenly remembered what happened there.
"I'm sorry, never mind how about-"
"No. I'm fine. Okay...I'll meet you at the library tomorrow if you forgive me and-"
"I've already forgiven you Woo." I said replying to whatever Wooyoung was about to say.
He pulled away from my arms.
"Wooyoung?" I said his name a little worriedly.
Suddenly Wooyoung started lowering himself into a bow.
"Woo!" I yelled.
"I know but...forgive me...for letting her take it...forgive me for loosing the ring of promise. I'm so sorry Taec." Wooyoung said.
I quickly pulled him back into a tight hug.
"I said I've already forgiven you and that is not your fault. Meet me tomorrow in the library, please." I murmured.
"Alright." he said nodding. "I will."
'Good.' I thought to myself. "I hope this makes you feel a little better."
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I waited in the room for a while and finally after getting worried, started my way towards Wooyoungs room when his friend Jeshka stopped me and told me what they discussed earlier.
"I don't think he is asleep though. He can't." she said.
I nodded.
"I'll go check on him." I said.
She nodded, thanked me, and smiled.
Silently I opened Wooyoungs door and walked inside into the dark lit room.
Wooyoung didn't move in his sheets as I sat down, moved the blanket from his head and stroked his cheek.
"Taec?" he mumbled as he groaned and opened his eyes.
I moved a little and lowered myself closer to Wooyoung.
"Sorry...I woke you up." I said.
He shook his head no as he groaned. "I can't....it won't let me. I'm so tired Taec." he said.
I wrapped my arms around his waist and pulled him close until he landed on my chest.
"Don't worry...I'm here...you can sleep I'll be here." I whispered soothing words to Wooyoung as I caught him drifting off.
I watched as eyes closed for only a few seconds before flying open.
"Gyah! I'm so sorry Taec! I totally forgot!" Wooyoung almost screamed.
I caught the tiredness in his voice.
"It's fine. I talked to Jeshka. She is right, you do need your sleep." I said smiling.
"I'm sorry." Wooyoung frowned as his eyebrows lowered.
"It's fine baby. Now go to sleep. I can give it to you when you wake up." I said smiling,
He nodded before taking a hold of the hem of my shirt and pulling closer to me.
"Your shaking." I said.
"I'm fine." Wooyoung replied.
"Don't do this if your-"
"Taec...I know you won't hurt me. I love you. I'm fine." Wooyoung said again.
I sighed and wrapped my arms around him again as I whispered the soothing words from earlier.
Not long before he closed his eyes, Wooyoung fell back asleep and I gave him a hard kiss on the forehead before lying next to him.
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I rushed towards Wooyoungs room as my mother and I finished arguing about Wooyoung going out with her.
"I know these past few weeks have been rough on you but you have decided to do the bonding and I need to talk to you about other important matters." mother said to Wooyoung just as I opened the door and caught them.
"I can walk. I won't fall over or anything." Wooyoung said quickly nodding as he smiled.
"Woo? No. Umma he-" I tried to say.
"He says yes. I won't let anything happen to him. We will be spending some time together before you two are officially together." mother said.
Wooyoung quickly nodded.
"I'll be fine Taec. I can take care of myself." he said smiling.
He wasn't fine. I could sense his tiredness. He didn't feel well at all.
"No." I said.
Mother sighed. "I'll give you two a bit of time to talk but be ready in an hour." she said leaving the room.
I shut the door behind her and turned to Wooyoung with a dissaproving stare as I crossed my arms.
"Your mom wants to spend some time with me it's not a big deal Taec." he said going to the closet.
"Woo...you don't know how much my heart suffered....either I go or I can't let you go." I said trying to desperately make him stop.
Yes desperately.
Wooyoung is the only one that can make me be desperate enough.
"Why?" Wooyoung suddenly said turning to me. "Your treating me like your slave again Taec, but now your making it seem like I am a child who can't take care or himself." he continued.
"Woo you-"
"I took care of myself back then and I can surely do it now."Wooyoung interrupted me as he turned and stared at me.
"I know it's just your memories talking." I said sighing.
Wooyoung lowered his head and sighed. "I'm sorry...but please let me
see what she wants." he said desperately.
"But how will I know. If something happens again Woo I want to know where you are. We haven't bonded yet so I won't know and I don't want Nichkhuns help again...I want to save you by myself!" I couldn't stop myself from screaming,
Wooyoung stared at me wide-eyed
"Wait? Is this...because I called out his name?" he asked.
"No! Yes! But that's what saved you so I'm happy but-" I stopped as Wooyoung started talking.
"Taec?" he said cuffing my cheek "Are you...that jealous of Nichkhun?" he asked.
I gave him a silly stare and started denying,
"What? No I'm...not I just-"
"Look." he said moving close to me "I only called him because I couldn't reach you. I called your name much more times but I knew since we haven't bonded nothing would work so...I remembered Nichkhun said whenever I'm in danger...just whisper his name and he'll come. He was the only other option Taec and if I hadn't done it..." he paused and shook his head.
"Those bastards. I would have ripped them to shreds." I snarled remembering my grip on the one guys neck.
Wooyoung smiled lightly and shook his head again.
"They didn't...get far...just...my blood and...touching." he said nervously.
"They were going to send you to Japan and sell you off! If I had gotten my hands on them - If only my Nichkhun was not there I would show-"
"Taec...can we...can we not talk about it please?" Wooyoung stopped me and asked politely.
I looked down at him and nodded as I sighed.
"So...let me go? I promise I'll come straight home with your mom and I'll stick next to her like a child." Wooyoung said.
I sighed again. "Are you taking a shower right now?" I asked.
"Yeah. I just need to grab some things and I'll-"
"I haven't taken my shower yet." I said smirking.
"Gosh Taec you really need to start having a proper shower schedule even if you aren't huma-" Wooyoung started saying when I interrupted him.
"Can I take it with you?" I asked.
Wooyoung stopped everything and paused.
"I'll be in a hurry." he said after a long time.
"That's the deal. Let me take a shower with you and I'll reconsider not following you and my mom." I said.
I felt Wooyoung flinch as I wrapped my arms around his body.
"I know your still avoiding my touch." I whispered in his ear.
Wooyoung tired to move but I held him tighter.
"I...I'm no-"
"Yes you are." I said quickly interrupting him.
"You take baths with Jae so why not a shower with me?" I asked.
"Taec I-"
"Your still letting those memories get to you. You don't even let me kiss you anymore. If your acting like this then there will be no bonding." I said.
He knew it was true too.
"But I want to!" Wooyoung yelled quickly.
"How? When you even flinch when I touch you." I said crossing my arms across my chest.
Wooyoung didn't say anything but unstiffened his body as I held him up.
"I'm sorry." he apologized "I...okay...let's go." he continued as he took hold of my hand.
I was dragged into the bathroom all while hearing Wooyoung's heart beat as fast as ever.
"You don't want to do this do you?" I asked.
Wooyoung looked up at me and shook his head while unbuttoning his shirt.
"We are together right? So there is no reason for me to be." he said.
I stared at the top of his head for a few seconds before stopping him by taking a hold of both his hands.
"Woo, stop." I said.
"Huh?" he said looking up at me.
"Your hands." I said feeling the shaking of smaller hands than mine.
"Hah..why am I doing this?" Wooyoung asked covering his face and chuckling sadly as he looked down at his hands.
"It's fine you don't have to go all the way to-" I started saying.
"No...If I don't do this then I never will get rid of this fear. I'll just hide it away again and when it comes back I'll be even more defeated." Wooyoung said frowning.
He finished with the buttons and took his shirt off.
I followed his lead and took my shirt off too.
"Now the pants." he said chuckling nervously.
"I can go first." I said.
He nodded and looked at me as I took my pants off.
"Would you...go in first?" Wooyoung asked nervously.
I felt his stare as I got into the stall.
Wooyoung stood for exactly a minute before taking off his pants.
"Stop it Woo! You can do this." he said to himself.
He looked straight as he stepped into the stall and I closed the door.
"I'm so glad that you can trust me this much." I said.
Wooyoung nodded "Me too. I want you to know that...I'm not afraid of you." he said.
"That makes me glad. Hey, wash my back?" I asked.
Wooyoung laughed but washed my back anyway.
I washed his after he finished mine.
I still felt Wooyoung's shaking hands though.
"That was really nice." he said starting on his hair.
"Let me." I said touching the soft dark colored hair.
"Thanks." Wooyoung said after I finished.
He turned to me and smiled.
I smiled back and for a little while I thought everything was okay, that I didn't want to touch him because if I did the moment would be ruined and Wooyoung would be scared.
"What's wrong?" Wooyoung asked frowning.
I really tried controlling myself as I stared down hard at Wooyoung but in the end it didn't work because I bent down and kissed him.
I felt his flinch.
"Sorry." I quickly apologized.
"W..why?" he asked chuckling a bit.
"It seems this is the first time we're seriously showering together." I said "It's more romantic than I thought.
"It's the perfect moment." Wooyoung replied nodding.
"But it isn't." I said.
"Because of me.." Wooyoung sighed.
"No you-"
"Hey Taec? I want you to kiss me again." Wooyoung interrupted me.
"What?" I said.
"Yeah...I want a k..kiss from you. Then we can...see where this goes. B..but we have to hurry. I have a date with your mom." he chuckled as he lowered his head.
I didn't even give Wooyoung time to raise his head before I caught his lips.
I felt him try to stop his trembling.
'I know he won't hurt me.' Wooyoung thought.
'I need to learn to forget.'
I smiled at those thoughts of his and intensified the kiss.
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A/N sorry it is late... :(...so sorry..
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