Regret Forever
" What is going on with you Donghae ?"."What you mean Hyung ?". i didnt know what to say or what to do but what i know it that i was surround.
' Oh Fuck there is no escape '
CHAPTER THREE
First time i met Leeteuk hyung was 10 years ago i was 14 years old i cam to Seoul following my dream to be the biggest Choreographer in Korea.
Until now i dont know why have been accepted ,because compared with the rest of the students i was different.im not rich,my father was employer in one othe insisitution in Mokpo ,my mother was a Housewife-graet housewife-. we were very ordinary family...normal family i think.
Love for dance ..passion ..made me becom the first in the school ,everybody love me students and teachers .
for Leeteuk i have been his favourit student ,he is for me the old brother that i never have.
After graduation ,Leeteuk hyung asked me to be a dance teacher in the school,i was shocked .i thought he was kidding with me ,but NO he wasnt . at first i hesitaded becaus i was afraid but he said"that will make you more confident and experience ". and he was right like alwayes.
In the car there was awkward silence i tried to breack it but i couldnt the words ran away from me.
"would you like to go to drink coffee?".asked me suddenly.
If i said 'NO'this will be without avail"OK hyung".
We arrived the cafe we usual hang out in.we sat in oure faverite table and again we were in silence i was very nervous i lowered my head stareing at my hands ,i couldnt make eye contact with him with him i feel like im exposed and right now i prefer to keep my problems for my self.
"did you know why I accept you in the school 10 years ago Donghae?"my eyes widened at the quistion i was surprised i didnt expect this .
"Why hyung?".
"in the personal interview i saw in youre eyes sparkle i didnt see it in the rest ..i felt ..love ..passion .. energey ...i saw in you my self when i as in youre age ..you have been a vibrnat ... but in the past few dayes you are different you change a lot alwayes lost... pale.. erratic.... what is going on with you Donghae?"
I wiped my teares i was affected by Leeteuk's words .beacuse that was the true even me i heated the person who i am right now .
"nothing hyung why you keep asking me that?"that what i manage to say.
"I notest youre recent behaviors there is some thing."he raised his voice ."but its look like you wont to keep it to youre self ,and hide it away from youre hyung."he was glareing at me ." you dont trust me any more Donghae? if you dont i will never ask again".
I never seen Leeteuk in this case before ,he was very angry and he shouted in my face for the first time. we attracted attention to us all the customers were looking toward oure table. but i didnt care .
My tears keep rolling on my cheeks "I dont trust you hyung ?how is that ?You know you are my family you and Kangin hyung .without you im lonely .." i was sobbing badly in that moment .
He rose from his chair and sat beside me ,he hugged me to calm me down . i cried my heart out on his shoulder ."shhh Its OK dont cry....im sorry...dont cry....i yell in your face bec-...im sorry for that but i cant help i have a strong feeling that you hide something of me something important ..."Leeteuk said and he keep stroking my hair then he asked me question i was waiting for it since we entered the cafee .
" Donghae...you in love with Hyukjae?" that was statment not question ." Me NO..NO ..i miss my father thats all i miss him hyung he left me ... very early belive me hyung " i cried again
He cupped my face and wipped my tears with his thumb,looked in my eyes and whispered "remember if there any thing concern you ..im here alwayes im here".
'Hyung i wish you can help me ..but you cant'.
After that watched my behaviors i tried to hold my feeling as much as i can..I was laughing..smiling..playing around but,alwayes Leeteuk gave me a look wich means ' you cant fool me my dearest donsaeng... '
Hyukjae was planing to visit his mother in the weekend ,he was very excited for that,he asked me to drive him to the train station wich i accepted with pleasure .when we arrived ,he hugged me tight " im gonna miss you see you soon ".he whispered.
I wished this moment remai for ever..i was longing for his touches ,for his embarace ,for his whispers, for every thing he was doing to me .
I knew since we met that he love i felt that but,he is a man who arranged his priorities , and his mother and pleasing her come on top of the world even if his happiness is the price.
' dayes will make me forget him '.
I lied because every day the love for Hyukjae was growing in my heart.
3 dayes passed since Hyukjae went to visit his mother , he didnt call me and that was weired.
I was in the dance room doing some warm up . i raise my head looking in the miror i saw Hyukjae leaning at the door..he was watching me with pale face.I was very happy to see him and worried expressions.
"oh GOD i miss you so much...."i ran to ward him and embraced him."why you didnt call".i hit his shoulder not too hard.
"stop pouting i miss you to i ha-.."
" CONGRATULATIONS".
we both looked at the door to see a very happy Ryeowook with the teachers they were grinning.
'what the happy faces early in the morning ..thats weird...'
"Hyukjae hyung did you told him ?" Shouted Ryeowook.
"told me what?".Hyukjae tighten his grip on my hands i looked at him i was so confused .
"I i will get married..... after two weeks."
A/N:for all who reads and love this fic thanx a lot i really appreciate youre comments this is a new chapter.^^
' Oh Fuck there is no escape '
CHAPTER THREE
First time i met Leeteuk hyung was 10 years ago i was 14 years old i cam to Seoul following my dream to be the biggest Choreographer in Korea.
Until now i dont know why have been accepted ,because compared with the rest of the students i was different.im not rich,my father was employer in one othe insisitution in Mokpo ,my mother was a Housewife-graet housewife-. we were very ordinary family...normal family i think.
Love for dance ..passion ..made me becom the first in the school ,everybody love me students and teachers .
for Leeteuk i have been his favourit student ,he is for me the old brother that i never have.
After graduation ,Leeteuk hyung asked me to be a dance teacher in the school,i was shocked .i thought he was kidding with me ,but NO he wasnt . at first i hesitaded becaus i was afraid but he said"that will make you more confident and experience ". and he was right like alwayes.
In the car there was awkward silence i tried to breack it but i couldnt the words ran away from me.
"would you like to go to drink coffee?".asked me suddenly.
If i said 'NO'this will be without avail"OK hyung".
We arrived the cafe we usual hang out in.we sat in oure faverite table and again we were in silence i was very nervous i lowered my head stareing at my hands ,i couldnt make eye contact with him with him i feel like im exposed and right now i prefer to keep my problems for my self.
"did you know why I accept you in the school 10 years ago Donghae?"my eyes widened at the quistion i was surprised i didnt expect this .
"Why hyung?".
"in the personal interview i saw in youre eyes sparkle i didnt see it in the rest ..i felt ..love ..passion .. energey ...i saw in you my self when i as in youre age ..you have been a vibrnat ... but in the past few dayes you are different you change a lot alwayes lost... pale.. erratic.... what is going on with you Donghae?"
I wiped my teares i was affected by Leeteuk's words .beacuse that was the true even me i heated the person who i am right now .
"nothing hyung why you keep asking me that?"that what i manage to say.
"I notest youre recent behaviors there is some thing."he raised his voice ."but its look like you wont to keep it to youre self ,and hide it away from youre hyung."he was glareing at me ." you dont trust me any more Donghae? if you dont i will never ask again".
I never seen Leeteuk in this case before ,he was very angry and he shouted in my face for the first time. we attracted attention to us all the customers were looking toward oure table. but i didnt care .
My tears keep rolling on my cheeks "I dont trust you hyung ?how is that ?You know you are my family you and Kangin hyung .without you im lonely .." i was sobbing badly in that moment .
He rose from his chair and sat beside me ,he hugged me to calm me down . i cried my heart out on his shoulder ."shhh Its OK dont cry....im sorry...dont cry....i yell in your face bec-...im sorry for that but i cant help i have a strong feeling that you hide something of me something important ..."Leeteuk said and he keep stroking my hair then he asked me question i was waiting for it since we entered the cafee .
" Donghae...you in love with Hyukjae?" that was statment not question ." Me NO..NO ..i miss my father thats all i miss him hyung he left me ... very early belive me hyung " i cried again
He cupped my face and wipped my tears with his thumb,looked in my eyes and whispered "remember if there any thing concern you ..im here alwayes im here".
'Hyung i wish you can help me ..but you cant'.
After that watched my behaviors i tried to hold my feeling as much as i can..I was laughing..smiling..playing around but,alwayes Leeteuk gave me a look wich means ' you cant fool me my dearest donsaeng... '
Hyukjae was planing to visit his mother in the weekend ,he was very excited for that,he asked me to drive him to the train station wich i accepted with pleasure .when we arrived ,he hugged me tight " im gonna miss you see you soon ".he whispered.
I wished this moment remai for ever..i was longing for his touches ,for his embarace ,for his whispers, for every thing he was doing to me .
I knew since we met that he love i felt that but,he is a man who arranged his priorities , and his mother and pleasing her come on top of the world even if his happiness is the price.
' dayes will make me forget him '.
I lied because every day the love for Hyukjae was growing in my heart.
3 dayes passed since Hyukjae went to visit his mother , he didnt call me and that was weired.
I was in the dance room doing some warm up . i raise my head looking in the miror i saw Hyukjae leaning at the door..he was watching me with pale face.I was very happy to see him and worried expressions.
"oh GOD i miss you so much...."i ran to ward him and embraced him."why you didnt call".i hit his shoulder not too hard.
"stop pouting i miss you to i ha-.."
" CONGRATULATIONS".
we both looked at the door to see a very happy Ryeowook with the teachers they were grinning.
'what the happy faces early in the morning ..thats weird...'
"Hyukjae hyung did you told him ?" Shouted Ryeowook.
"told me what?".Hyukjae tighten his grip on my hands i looked at him i was so confused .
"I i will get married..... after two weeks."
A/N:for all who reads and love this fic thanx a lot i really appreciate youre comments this is a new chapter.^^