Regret Forever
"shill down hyung ....look at him he is very fascinating if i were you i will not waist this chance"
"wh..."didnt complete my sentence he pow and left the room.'what the hill means"not waist the chane".
I looked to Hyukjae he still talking and smiling ....'he is realy beutiful...what the hell im thinking a bout ....damn you Cho Kyuhun'.
CHAPTER TOW
Dance classes became more interesting i have been waitng when the morning will come to go to the school and see him.When i looking at him there was an odd sensation's i never felt before..i felt warm like i went back home and with Kyuhun words that remaind in my head sush as resonance worked on deepening these feelings to something i was alwayes try to avoid.
I didnt want to have special person in my life ,because the most special..important..precious one in my life left me and went to world i cant reached.
My father who promised me to be beside me guied me when i take the most important decisions in my life ,that he will be next to me grief to my sorrow and be happy for my happiness..he died ..left alone struggling with this world without guided i cant handdle another lost.
But it seems that things will change the happines was alwayes talking about its close to me.
Its been 4 months since Hyukjae became on of (SM ART) family ofcurce ,because teaching the same class we spend all the time together .the time was passed very quicly when i was with him ,during the classes we was creat new stepsand amazing dance preformes the students were amused with it ,they were waiting for the dance class with passion and they demanded to make the class every day .
The time we have no classes we just sit on the ground ouer backes face the mirror and talk for hours.i told him every thing about me ,i didnt know where that comportable feeling come when i talk to him like i was talking to my self...may be because we are sam age he is 7 months older than me .
One day he was talking about him self ,he told about a tiny detailes in his life like he was reading it a book.he said one thing macke me wish if i could disappeared for the rest of my life,when he was in the high school he had fall in love with his best freind his name Lee Sungmin ,they were on a secret relationship for 2 years....." I was foreced to breack up with him for my mother...im her only sun..i didnt hide a secret from her never and that was killing me .when i confessed for her about my feeling and that im not straight ,she protest with all what she have of forde..i left the house without returne this was my intention..she collapsed and entered the hosepital...i couldnt...i returned she staied in the bed for 3 weeks she wasnt talking to me she saied that'im not her son any more if i didnt leave Sungmin' at the end i gave up i couldnt go against here not with her condition,she was very week..i was afraid to lose her....i sacrificed with love of my life".he was holding back his tears"But now im very happy because she is happy and proud of me ...my dreames come true and i becom a teacher in one of the bigest school in Korea". Drew a sad smile on his lips.
I kept my eyes on him while hw was talking...actually i have encouraged myself to mack the first move to confess about my feeling for him but after this little talk that save myself from huge embarrassment ' thank God i didnt say any word '.
As usual sound of laughter fill the class everybody were laughing the students Hyukjae i was laughing too but behind my smiles and giggles there was a sorrow and suffering inside me , i felt hall in my chest when i was breathing .it was killing me till i wiched to stop breathing any more .
I have fallen in love and its to late to take it back these feeling or forget about it.i loved every thing in this person...how he stareing on me in the miror..how he will smile and laugh when i say something stuped..how he will hug me so tight when i show him a new dance steps that he Impressed with it..my face was turnd red for that.
One day at the end of the class the student left the studio,i started gathering my stuff ready to leave suddenly i felt my body shiver i raised my head i saw Hyukjae staering at me in the miror while he was walking toward me until he was few inches behind me ,i could feel his body heat hit my body i tensed for that strange behavior.my heartbeats became faster,my breath became heavy,my face turned red.
I turned to leave i didnt know i bumped with him until i heard my phone hit the ground and became pieces "OH SHIT" i bend down to collected it,he bend down to help me accidentally he hold my hand our eyes met i was confused i opened my mouth to say something any thing to breack the silence...
"What are you doing ?Why are you still here?"
I looked at the sound direction ,i saw Leeteuk hyung standing at the door with a suspicious eyes...words froze in my throat.
"we were leaving but Hae dropp his phon and break it."he answered with his famus gummy smile and hold my hand and draged me out.
I was walking in the street thinking about what happend in the studio 'why Hyuk acting like that?' i heared some one calling my name ,i looked around i saw Leeteuk waveing for me he offerd to drive me home and i accepted.
In the car after awakwared silence " What is going on with you Donghae ?"."What you mean Hyung ?". i didnt know what to say or what to do but what i know it that i was surround.
' Oh Fuck there is no escape ' .
A/N: the 2end chapter i hop you will like it comment plz^^
"wh..."didnt complete my sentence he pow and left the room.'what the hill means"not waist the chane".
I looked to Hyukjae he still talking and smiling ....'he is realy beutiful...what the hell im thinking a bout ....damn you Cho Kyuhun'.
CHAPTER TOW
Dance classes became more interesting i have been waitng when the morning will come to go to the school and see him.When i looking at him there was an odd sensation's i never felt before..i felt warm like i went back home and with Kyuhun words that remaind in my head sush as resonance worked on deepening these feelings to something i was alwayes try to avoid.
I didnt want to have special person in my life ,because the most special..important..precious one in my life left me and went to world i cant reached.
My father who promised me to be beside me guied me when i take the most important decisions in my life ,that he will be next to me grief to my sorrow and be happy for my happiness..he died ..left alone struggling with this world without guided i cant handdle another lost.
But it seems that things will change the happines was alwayes talking about its close to me.
Its been 4 months since Hyukjae became on of (SM ART) family ofcurce ,because teaching the same class we spend all the time together .the time was passed very quicly when i was with him ,during the classes we was creat new stepsand amazing dance preformes the students were amused with it ,they were waiting for the dance class with passion and they demanded to make the class every day .
The time we have no classes we just sit on the ground ouer backes face the mirror and talk for hours.i told him every thing about me ,i didnt know where that comportable feeling come when i talk to him like i was talking to my self...may be because we are sam age he is 7 months older than me .
One day he was talking about him self ,he told about a tiny detailes in his life like he was reading it a book.he said one thing macke me wish if i could disappeared for the rest of my life,when he was in the high school he had fall in love with his best freind his name Lee Sungmin ,they were on a secret relationship for 2 years....." I was foreced to breack up with him for my mother...im her only sun..i didnt hide a secret from her never and that was killing me .when i confessed for her about my feeling and that im not straight ,she protest with all what she have of forde..i left the house without returne this was my intention..she collapsed and entered the hosepital...i couldnt...i returned she staied in the bed for 3 weeks she wasnt talking to me she saied that'im not her son any more if i didnt leave Sungmin' at the end i gave up i couldnt go against here not with her condition,she was very week..i was afraid to lose her....i sacrificed with love of my life".he was holding back his tears"But now im very happy because she is happy and proud of me ...my dreames come true and i becom a teacher in one of the bigest school in Korea". Drew a sad smile on his lips.
I kept my eyes on him while hw was talking...actually i have encouraged myself to mack the first move to confess about my feeling for him but after this little talk that save myself from huge embarrassment ' thank God i didnt say any word '.
As usual sound of laughter fill the class everybody were laughing the students Hyukjae i was laughing too but behind my smiles and giggles there was a sorrow and suffering inside me , i felt hall in my chest when i was breathing .it was killing me till i wiched to stop breathing any more .
I have fallen in love and its to late to take it back these feeling or forget about it.i loved every thing in this person...how he stareing on me in the miror..how he will smile and laugh when i say something stuped..how he will hug me so tight when i show him a new dance steps that he Impressed with it..my face was turnd red for that.
One day at the end of the class the student left the studio,i started gathering my stuff ready to leave suddenly i felt my body shiver i raised my head i saw Hyukjae staering at me in the miror while he was walking toward me until he was few inches behind me ,i could feel his body heat hit my body i tensed for that strange behavior.my heartbeats became faster,my breath became heavy,my face turned red.
I turned to leave i didnt know i bumped with him until i heard my phone hit the ground and became pieces "OH SHIT" i bend down to collected it,he bend down to help me accidentally he hold my hand our eyes met i was confused i opened my mouth to say something any thing to breack the silence...
"What are you doing ?Why are you still here?"
I looked at the sound direction ,i saw Leeteuk hyung standing at the door with a suspicious eyes...words froze in my throat.
"we were leaving but Hae dropp his phon and break it."he answered with his famus gummy smile and hold my hand and draged me out.
I was walking in the street thinking about what happend in the studio 'why Hyuk acting like that?' i heared some one calling my name ,i looked around i saw Leeteuk waveing for me he offerd to drive me home and i accepted.
In the car after awakwared silence " What is going on with you Donghae ?"."What you mean Hyung ?". i didnt know what to say or what to do but what i know it that i was surround.
' Oh Fuck there is no escape ' .
A/N: the 2end chapter i hop you will like it comment plz^^