Stuff
It seems like there is always so much to do, and most of it I don't want to do, but think I have to. I've had 4 of my 5 days off so far. I've got some of my yardwork done, some of my housework done, spent a lot of time listening to Dean explain how the camper works (he's just figuring it out and wants to tell me everything he discovers) and I went to this weekend's round of graduation open houses.
And spent one evening with our friends Don and Lisa who recently lost their youngest son in a car accident. They were at one of the open houses - Riley would be graduating this year, and they were planning a party for him. The one they went to was, of course, guys (twins) from the cross team who were very close to Riley. There were pictures of them with Riley going back at least 10 years. Lisa looked like she was having a hard time of it when I got there, and next time I checked she was in tears. All the talk of the twins wonderful plans - they have been accepted at Harvard - made me sad even before I saw Lisa and Don. While I'm happy(as everybody is) about these guys' plans, I can't help realizing that all of Riley's wonderful plans will never happen. And Lisa and Don have to go on without knowing, seeing or being a part of all they had planned. Like Don said to me last week "It's just not a good thing."
I had a great weekend, all in all, and got some things accomplished while still getting some relaxation time. All that isn't done is still bugging me, but..........
I try really hard to concentrate on good things instead of the very human habit of seeing the bad. I had a bunch of things that I wanted to get done that I needed Dean's help with this weekend. However, he had different ideas and spent the time we had free playing with the trailer and playing video games while I worked cleaning the house and in the yard. I must keep repeating - he is not critical, he is never angry at me, I don't have to worry about him being faithful, he is not controlling, He is not demanding. He is sweet and gentle and thoughtful and considerate of others. He is a GOOD man. He doesn't swear or drink excessively or cheat. He gives me a free hand with our money. And that's just a few of the good things.
Back to work day after tomorrow. Will there ever be a day when I look forward to going to work? Does anybody?
And spent one evening with our friends Don and Lisa who recently lost their youngest son in a car accident. They were at one of the open houses - Riley would be graduating this year, and they were planning a party for him. The one they went to was, of course, guys (twins) from the cross team who were very close to Riley. There were pictures of them with Riley going back at least 10 years. Lisa looked like she was having a hard time of it when I got there, and next time I checked she was in tears. All the talk of the twins wonderful plans - they have been accepted at Harvard - made me sad even before I saw Lisa and Don. While I'm happy(as everybody is) about these guys' plans, I can't help realizing that all of Riley's wonderful plans will never happen. And Lisa and Don have to go on without knowing, seeing or being a part of all they had planned. Like Don said to me last week "It's just not a good thing."
I had a great weekend, all in all, and got some things accomplished while still getting some relaxation time. All that isn't done is still bugging me, but..........
I try really hard to concentrate on good things instead of the very human habit of seeing the bad. I had a bunch of things that I wanted to get done that I needed Dean's help with this weekend. However, he had different ideas and spent the time we had free playing with the trailer and playing video games while I worked cleaning the house and in the yard. I must keep repeating - he is not critical, he is never angry at me, I don't have to worry about him being faithful, he is not controlling, He is not demanding. He is sweet and gentle and thoughtful and considerate of others. He is a GOOD man. He doesn't swear or drink excessively or cheat. He gives me a free hand with our money. And that's just a few of the good things.
Back to work day after tomorrow. Will there ever be a day when I look forward to going to work? Does anybody?