It's fine the way you want me on your own, but in the end its always me alone im losin my fav game..
im feelin realy blahhh lately, i mean i dont wana sound so egocentrical ALWAYS talkin about myself so ill try and write somethin interesting....mmmm ok here goes:
yesterday i found out that YET ANOTHER of my friends is into selling or transporting drugs, damit its like there's no other activities to do in this town, you either get pregnant or sell drugs...truth be told i prefer the drugs i mean sure sex is nice an' all but lately my lov life is goin through a tube...im breaking of with hozkar for shure and its mostly cuz i hate to admit it but im not in love with him, dont get me wrong i luv him and everything but just NOT mad crazy senceless love and thats the kind im lookin for..is it too much to ask for?!!!! guess so, oh well there's always the unevitable casual flirting and meaningless and short relationships. truth be told im geting fed up with the hole finding your soul mate thing, i do believe twas just a fad. its ridiculus to think that your ment to spend your hole life with A SINGLE person, i mean human beings are social animals we are MENT to mingle, besides its not like the whole destined to be with someone for the rest of your life isnt odly disturbing and quite scary, yet i wont eliminate the posibility of actualy finding someone that will put up with me and whom i wont get bored of....sounds like i still believe in soul mates, doesnt it? fuck
yesterday i found out that YET ANOTHER of my friends is into selling or transporting drugs, damit its like there's no other activities to do in this town, you either get pregnant or sell drugs...truth be told i prefer the drugs i mean sure sex is nice an' all but lately my lov life is goin through a tube...im breaking of with hozkar for shure and its mostly cuz i hate to admit it but im not in love with him, dont get me wrong i luv him and everything but just NOT mad crazy senceless love and thats the kind im lookin for..is it too much to ask for?!!!! guess so, oh well there's always the unevitable casual flirting and meaningless and short relationships. truth be told im geting fed up with the hole finding your soul mate thing, i do believe twas just a fad. its ridiculus to think that your ment to spend your hole life with A SINGLE person, i mean human beings are social animals we are MENT to mingle, besides its not like the whole destined to be with someone for the rest of your life isnt odly disturbing and quite scary, yet i wont eliminate the posibility of actualy finding someone that will put up with me and whom i wont get bored of....sounds like i still believe in soul mates, doesnt it? fuck