Boot to the head!
I am here, having too much catharsis for one person. I am telling you this book “I could be anything if I only knew what it was” by Barbara Sher, just has been in a twist. I have been in a spin reading it, and trying to implement some of it’s teachings! I would really recommend it to you! I had my group meeting today, and was really great to be with like minded people for an hour. I have been having a real motivation issue since being back from Colorado on getting through my learning practices today, and finally figured out why…. I want to work on me, not Forester Shit. For Forester I feel burnt out and am doing the work, but have been feeling I am just on the mill doing work. There has been no real learning for a long time. I keep asking, but there has been no movement. Then today it hit me that I need the learning to be growth for me! Dah. Why have I been so hesitant to do more work? Because it was about making some new project up I did not CARE about. If I change that to Forester is providing the funding for me to learn, and therefore be a better employee, I get to do my work with a smile, and learn about what I want for my own life. Dah! Doing a learning practice seems like a treat, not another potato to peel in a tall pile of them. Christ. Why do I have to get hit with a 2x4 before learning?