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Day in summary:
Missed chem for no good reason, I would've been five minutes late if I had tried.
The aforementioned weird discussion in bio.
I had cream of mushroom soup for lunch. It was alright.
In lab we made playdough worms of different colors. Some of them had quinine added to make them disgusting. We're leaving them out and seeing if the animals around here will learn to associate color with the bad taste. Kinda cool.
Had a cool talk with Krysten. Nice.
Made spaghetti and tofuballs. Pretty good.
Went looking for a coat. Saw one I liked at Macy's for 250$. Did not get it. Went to BJ's to get water bottles. Looked at their coats, they had the exact same one for 70$. Sweet.
Got home, chilled for a bit.
Grandma died. I want to go to UMass tomorrow a lot more. It would hurt mom's feelings. I don't understand why, but I can't go. Whatever. My mom thinks I want to go to get drunk. I realize that's not it and it sort of makes me feel worse. The problems in my family might not be superficial. This might help though.
It appears my mom knew that my grandma actually had extensive heart tissue damage from the initial heart attack. I did not. What I heard was that she had a heart attack due to a collapsed artery, they put stents in, her leg has almost died but otherwise it was cool. She seemed strong and healthy last time I saw her. I would've skipped work last time if I had known about the tissue damage, because I would've known that she was going to die. My mom staunchly denied this before. I really should remember what an emotional person she is.
My mom said we were going to bring her up here to live in assisted living. I would've driven her around to her doctor and physical therapist and we would've talked and I would've gotten to know her. Because she was here, my mom's family would visit more, and it looked like they were getting along better before, and I thought that would continue. Now, they're probably blaming each other and things will be as bad as they were before or worse.
She was really careful to give us good last words, at least. I hope I know before I die that I'm going to.
The vertical horizon thing was about me. I would be flying right now if that was an isolated event. The timing here is just awful.
Missed chem for no good reason, I would've been five minutes late if I had tried.
The aforementioned weird discussion in bio.
I had cream of mushroom soup for lunch. It was alright.
In lab we made playdough worms of different colors. Some of them had quinine added to make them disgusting. We're leaving them out and seeing if the animals around here will learn to associate color with the bad taste. Kinda cool.
Had a cool talk with Krysten. Nice.
Made spaghetti and tofuballs. Pretty good.
Went looking for a coat. Saw one I liked at Macy's for 250$. Did not get it. Went to BJ's to get water bottles. Looked at their coats, they had the exact same one for 70$. Sweet.
Got home, chilled for a bit.
Grandma died. I want to go to UMass tomorrow a lot more. It would hurt mom's feelings. I don't understand why, but I can't go. Whatever. My mom thinks I want to go to get drunk. I realize that's not it and it sort of makes me feel worse. The problems in my family might not be superficial. This might help though.
It appears my mom knew that my grandma actually had extensive heart tissue damage from the initial heart attack. I did not. What I heard was that she had a heart attack due to a collapsed artery, they put stents in, her leg has almost died but otherwise it was cool. She seemed strong and healthy last time I saw her. I would've skipped work last time if I had known about the tissue damage, because I would've known that she was going to die. My mom staunchly denied this before. I really should remember what an emotional person she is.
My mom said we were going to bring her up here to live in assisted living. I would've driven her around to her doctor and physical therapist and we would've talked and I would've gotten to know her. Because she was here, my mom's family would visit more, and it looked like they were getting along better before, and I thought that would continue. Now, they're probably blaming each other and things will be as bad as they were before or worse.
She was really careful to give us good last words, at least. I hope I know before I die that I'm going to.
The vertical horizon thing was about me. I would be flying right now if that was an isolated event. The timing here is just awful.