If a watched pot never boils...
...then I might as well update my journal while I wait on it. :-D
It's kinda strange. I thought, after the years of drama within my family, and years theoretically separating myself out so that their dramas didn't unravel my own life, that I was kind of immune to it. I tend to have a fair idea of where bits of it can come from, so I prepare myself for it and if it doesn't happen, awesome... and if it does, darn. My sister and her bf's drama I was prepared for, though I wasn't expecting the specific complications that have arisen. My uncle and aunt I was prepared for, though it really really sucks. My mom and her partner... caught me by surprise. I wasn't expecting any unhappiness for those I love from that corner.
Work has seemed to be one disaster after another. First one of my coworkers' grandmother died, then one of my supervisors' husband died. Then one of our long-time fixtures got an old (better) job back and left, creating a power hole and a bit of an internal politics struggle. Personally, I'm hoping it winds up back in the hands of the supervisors, because having a level one acting like a supervisor without the actual authority to confront people demanding different (wrong) performance just doesn't work out well.
And life in general... I find it difficult to focus on things again, can't motivate myself to do basic things like housework, don't want to fight with Guy about doing things that I want to do instead of just what he's in the mood to do, so don't wind up doing some of the things I actually have the drive to do because I want to spend time with him more than I want to do it. He's discovered that his superiors actually *do* expect him to work toward his degree, so he (rightly, for us) has announced the importance of himself getting back in school... I know that doesn't mean that he's shoving me getting back into school off to the side, but the paranoid part of me that's clinging to it as finally moving forward with my plans for my life is screaming its head off.
Our relationship seems to be at a holding point while we get everything else together right now. We've got some issues, but neither of us is willing to press to the end on them right now, and we're not quite in a position yet to make other plans happen.
Mostly I've been playing lots of Warcraft. Reading a bit more, lately, too. *sighs happily on that score*
I don't know why I'm presenting all of the quandary-type things going on. Right now, even with all of that, I'm fairly content in life. Work is moving forward, the intelligent part of my mind realizes that I *am* getting back into school this fall, things *have* improved with Guy, my group of people in WoW feels like it's moving towards goals, and we're going to be moving into a two-bedroom this fall, which'll make getting everything out and in its place much easier. Things are moving again, in a positive direction, and I'm generally happy with that. I guess hearing about Mom's relationship problems kinda set me to thinking about stuff in general, and gave it a negative slant. Not even sure if I should post this... but I typed it all out, so why not? Can always delete it tomorrow if it seems a poor decision. :-D
And now dinner is done, and eaten, and it's time for bed before getting up in 6 hours for work. :-D
It's kinda strange. I thought, after the years of drama within my family, and years theoretically separating myself out so that their dramas didn't unravel my own life, that I was kind of immune to it. I tend to have a fair idea of where bits of it can come from, so I prepare myself for it and if it doesn't happen, awesome... and if it does, darn. My sister and her bf's drama I was prepared for, though I wasn't expecting the specific complications that have arisen. My uncle and aunt I was prepared for, though it really really sucks. My mom and her partner... caught me by surprise. I wasn't expecting any unhappiness for those I love from that corner.
Work has seemed to be one disaster after another. First one of my coworkers' grandmother died, then one of my supervisors' husband died. Then one of our long-time fixtures got an old (better) job back and left, creating a power hole and a bit of an internal politics struggle. Personally, I'm hoping it winds up back in the hands of the supervisors, because having a level one acting like a supervisor without the actual authority to confront people demanding different (wrong) performance just doesn't work out well.
And life in general... I find it difficult to focus on things again, can't motivate myself to do basic things like housework, don't want to fight with Guy about doing things that I want to do instead of just what he's in the mood to do, so don't wind up doing some of the things I actually have the drive to do because I want to spend time with him more than I want to do it. He's discovered that his superiors actually *do* expect him to work toward his degree, so he (rightly, for us) has announced the importance of himself getting back in school... I know that doesn't mean that he's shoving me getting back into school off to the side, but the paranoid part of me that's clinging to it as finally moving forward with my plans for my life is screaming its head off.
Our relationship seems to be at a holding point while we get everything else together right now. We've got some issues, but neither of us is willing to press to the end on them right now, and we're not quite in a position yet to make other plans happen.
Mostly I've been playing lots of Warcraft. Reading a bit more, lately, too. *sighs happily on that score*
I don't know why I'm presenting all of the quandary-type things going on. Right now, even with all of that, I'm fairly content in life. Work is moving forward, the intelligent part of my mind realizes that I *am* getting back into school this fall, things *have* improved with Guy, my group of people in WoW feels like it's moving towards goals, and we're going to be moving into a two-bedroom this fall, which'll make getting everything out and in its place much easier. Things are moving again, in a positive direction, and I'm generally happy with that. I guess hearing about Mom's relationship problems kinda set me to thinking about stuff in general, and gave it a negative slant. Not even sure if I should post this... but I typed it all out, so why not? Can always delete it tomorrow if it seems a poor decision. :-D
And now dinner is done, and eaten, and it's time for bed before getting up in 6 hours for work. :-D