May 09, 2009 23:00
I got to chill out with a friend I havent seen in forever today. It was so awesome~ We spent most of the day catching up on the drama that is my life, pieces I havent shared with most friends, and had an awesome discussion about religion and the depths of a person's soul.
In short, I personally believe that for every heart you've touched, you've given you've given a piece of your soul. For every friend you've ever really cared for, and every person you've ever made smile, anyone you've ever truly had an effect on. It's not so much that you've given them that piece, but in some ways they've taken it. As far as falling in love, thats a big piece of your heart, or "Soul" for lack of a better word, that you've given them, and taken from them in return (assuming they love you as well). You're always giving and taking a part of people and your self, and lacking a better word for it, I'll call that essence your soul. The fire that gives you life. Though you may have only given an ember, it's still some small piece of you. A reason why a friend betraying you or a loved one not meeting the standards you've set, hurts so much. They're just tormented or destroyed that part of you. When someone dies, that little bit of them still lives in you. A reason why I dont believe anyone really ever dies, in some ways they still live inside of you, so long as you never forget them, they can survive.
The conversation lead back to religion, what happens after you die? No one really knows, and no one can give you a true and finite, for sure answer. No one's ever lived to tell the tale. You could spend your entire life believing that you will go to heaven if you go to church every sunday and follow the many teachings of the bible (fallable or not, which is a post for much later), but you'll never really know. And theres nothing wrong with doubting. I doubt there's really a heaven or a hell, where your soul is judge to live eternally in your sin. Somehow that doesnt sound like the merciful god that I grew up understanding. There truely is more to this life then living to die, I personally think you live this life for what you'll life will be like after you die, but I dont know for sure. I've somehow come to terms with not knowing. Even though what you do in this life dictates your next, you should still live this life to the fullest. There is so much to live for, even when you cant see it. A glass half empty is not only a glass half full, it can also be refilled.
An interesting top meant to be discussed with the open minded. I've had a similar discussion before with another friend but was condemed and juged for my ideals. I'm a crazy person that tries my hardest not to judge someone for what they believe or how they act, and for some strange reason, ask for that in return.
The reader's digest version: I think too much.
An intersting topic none the less.