just the same old me
its the moodiness & the hormones i tell you. but i can't seem to tell me.
i'm feeling sad. i'm feeling panic-y about gaining weight ALREADY.. even though i haven't actually gained any yet - just feeling puffier and puffy-fatness is gathering around my midsection .. it doesn't help that i have no energy and i feel too sick to excercise, and i have to eat all the time.. i can't be really picky about what i eat because most of the time i have very little choice and everything makes me feel sick.. i'm also drinking soda (caffeine free) all the time because juice and water seem gross..
i'm moody - but my mood swings are in slow motion.. probably because i don't have the energy to swing any faster..
so here i sit. at work. drinking sprite out of a can through a straw and trying to keep my eyes open.
i don't think i've ever had as hard of a time waking up as i did today. its almost 10am and i could still just roll over and go back to sleep..
last night was a busy night and i don't think that helped.. tonight, i have better plans.. i'll be sitting on the couch.
wah- wah and blah .. i just can't wait for this part to be over. its only been a week & 3 days since i really started feeling crappy and i'm tired of it already..
i could so easily justify never going to work.. and because of that, i really need to be at work all the time. .. except when i go to the doctor..
i know i'll probably start feeling better at some point.. but to get myself through this i'm thinking about quitting early.. i just can't see how i could work through to the middle of tax season .. so much stress and running around .. i don't know... its so hard to think about - i want to think of my health and comfort and everything first and think, yes - leave feb 1st -i'll have been here a year.. its early enough for them to find someone else -it will cost about $2600 for me to leave 6 weeks early. when i put it that way it sure doesn't sound cool does it. ok. it won't REALLY cost that much - but thats how much i won't have... it will actually cost about 450.00 - (health insurance). i'm going to have to wait til i tell work to really know how this will go down..
what can i say. i'm a planner. i do this. and on top of that i have absolutly nothing to do at work other than think about it. nothing. well, i have a little bit of work i could do but i'm saving it for tomorrow morning when everyone will be in a meeting and it will be quiet ..
i'm feeling sad. i'm feeling panic-y about gaining weight ALREADY.. even though i haven't actually gained any yet - just feeling puffier and puffy-fatness is gathering around my midsection .. it doesn't help that i have no energy and i feel too sick to excercise, and i have to eat all the time.. i can't be really picky about what i eat because most of the time i have very little choice and everything makes me feel sick.. i'm also drinking soda (caffeine free) all the time because juice and water seem gross..
i'm moody - but my mood swings are in slow motion.. probably because i don't have the energy to swing any faster..
so here i sit. at work. drinking sprite out of a can through a straw and trying to keep my eyes open.
i don't think i've ever had as hard of a time waking up as i did today. its almost 10am and i could still just roll over and go back to sleep..
last night was a busy night and i don't think that helped.. tonight, i have better plans.. i'll be sitting on the couch.
wah- wah and blah .. i just can't wait for this part to be over. its only been a week & 3 days since i really started feeling crappy and i'm tired of it already..
i could so easily justify never going to work.. and because of that, i really need to be at work all the time. .. except when i go to the doctor..
i know i'll probably start feeling better at some point.. but to get myself through this i'm thinking about quitting early.. i just can't see how i could work through to the middle of tax season .. so much stress and running around .. i don't know... its so hard to think about - i want to think of my health and comfort and everything first and think, yes - leave feb 1st -i'll have been here a year.. its early enough for them to find someone else -it will cost about $2600 for me to leave 6 weeks early. when i put it that way it sure doesn't sound cool does it. ok. it won't REALLY cost that much - but thats how much i won't have... it will actually cost about 450.00 - (health insurance). i'm going to have to wait til i tell work to really know how this will go down..
what can i say. i'm a planner. i do this. and on top of that i have absolutly nothing to do at work other than think about it. nothing. well, i have a little bit of work i could do but i'm saving it for tomorrow morning when everyone will be in a meeting and it will be quiet ..