holding off
I think sometimes people pick fights because they need something different and interesting to do, but i'm really starting to get annoyed that it always has to be with me...and i know exactly why, people get frustrated at the fact that i won't ever fight back, so then they do it even more, and it's the one thing i really try my hardest to avoid because it makes no sense to me, usually it's just making something out of nothing and i seriously have better things to do with my time
there is only one person that i'll really stand it for and i know i shouldn't but i just can't help it because i love them, but it's the same fight over and over so it's starting to seem like an endless vicious cycle, and i almost feel like i'm wasting my time, and that the result of all of it is just going to be a big ball of nothing so i'm contemplating whether to just move on because this is getting a little insane, not only is it frustrating because nothing ever changes but it's draining all of my energy because i'm putting forth so much emotion and it's being very underappreciated, so i just put more and more in hoping i'll get a different response...but all i get is the same old shit. i nver thought in a million years that it would come to me saying this but i just can't help it now