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I've been staying away from LJ because I think I could actually get better and stop obsessing about everything, but that hasn't been going so well. I try to make myself eat 1200 calories a day, but that often leads to binging. Then today, when I was depressed and home alone I went to the store for the specific purpose of buying binge foods. Which I promptly purged. This sounds completely disgusting, but I was excited because I ate a bunch of red fruit snacks and it was easy to tell when they were gone (compared to the rest of my stomach contents).
I'm dangerously close to 150 again, but I feel powerless to do anything about it.
I'm dangerously close to 150 again, but I feel powerless to do anything about it.