you should see me when I'm depressed

[etram]

I think I know what I am now. Still, nobody else knows me. My friends don't know who I am. If I were suicidal, I'd have died a thousand times. I'm tired of being an inanimate object... I have nothing to hide, yet nobody cares to know me. Sure, my mother... but she's a psychologist... and before I can let her know me, I need girlfriend or something

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[etram]

I might have found it and been fine when I was in D.C., but now I'm not with those people and that environment. Now if I find my heart its only because someone lifts their shoe... stepped on, that's all...
One thing I could do when I was with those people was cross my legs, talk with a lisp, etc. (be as obviously gay as I could make people think I was). I let people know I wasn't really gay... I seemed to make a lot of the people laugh and me keeping a straight face just makes it even better... I made friends easily and those that never quite figured out that the entire thing was just show - I didn't have to worry about it, because I knew I'd never see them again. I was a pimp then...
Here, everybody's gotta stay in their own little groups and make fun of the other groups and all... I can't do the same act here, because people will just dislike me more because I must be gay or something... Or go off with their friends and make fun of how stupid the whole thing was (too become more accepted into their group)... yeah...
from pimp to nothing? I don't know...?
It was fun...

[weatherseed]

People down here are fuckasses.

[sevendevilhell]

not all of them. i know a lot of really great people. but... the majority of people are just assholes.

fuck people. its when you step up to being an individual that i count you as existing. all these groups and such, i dont fuck with it.

thats right, bitch.