Well Alrighty Then
I just can't help but take some time to reflect on myself. I have been hating myself for quite awhile now, and I'm wondering why I am doing so. Though as result, I have been able to come up with rational conclusions. One is that I am not being productive and getting the work done I need to. In contrast, I did prove that by being effecient and productive when I organized my closet, it brought much personal satisfaction and even a slight ego boast. It made me feel proud of myself that I took the initiative. Man, if I could feel that way with just cleaning the closet, just think about how I would feel if start applying myself in more complex tasks, such as choreographing, getting my video edits done, and completing my production book. I will feel on cloud nine I am sure.
Another issue that seems to tug at my self worth is the people I associate myself with. I have the choice to go out and see anyone I want. And when I have discovered that the person I am with is not making me feel comfortable, or puts me in compromising my situations, it blows out my self esteem. I end up blaming myself because I knew that I have the power to dicate who I spend my time with, and I made a poor decision. This has become a chronic problem. Maybe it's because I am so damn nice. :-\
Another issue that seems to tug at my self worth is the people I associate myself with. I have the choice to go out and see anyone I want. And when I have discovered that the person I am with is not making me feel comfortable, or puts me in compromising my situations, it blows out my self esteem. I end up blaming myself because I knew that I have the power to dicate who I spend my time with, and I made a poor decision. This has become a chronic problem. Maybe it's because I am so damn nice. :-\