2009-06-28
I've lost my motivation. Lost my motivation for pretty much everything.
I have no appetite, which has led me to lose 9 lbs in just 3 weeks.
I can't sleep. Or when I am able to fall asleep, it's just for an hour or two at a time.
I have no desire to do anything when I'm at work, and I almost want to tell my supervisors to "Screw it, find someone else to do all your grunt work."
My room is an absolute mess because I don't want to bother cleaning any of it.
I'm just done. I don't have any motivation for anything anymore.
And the worst part of it all? I really don't have a want to find motivation again. Zoning out at work? I'm fine with it. Not getting a good night's rest? I've already accepted it. Not eating much? I didn't need the extra calorie intake anyway.
I just... I'm done.
I'm done.
I'm done caring. I don't have any motivation to do anything, and I don't care.
I have no appetite, which has led me to lose 9 lbs in just 3 weeks.
I can't sleep. Or when I am able to fall asleep, it's just for an hour or two at a time.
I have no desire to do anything when I'm at work, and I almost want to tell my supervisors to "Screw it, find someone else to do all your grunt work."
My room is an absolute mess because I don't want to bother cleaning any of it.
I'm just done. I don't have any motivation for anything anymore.
And the worst part of it all? I really don't have a want to find motivation again. Zoning out at work? I'm fine with it. Not getting a good night's rest? I've already accepted it. Not eating much? I didn't need the extra calorie intake anyway.
I just... I'm done.
I'm done.
I'm done caring. I don't have any motivation to do anything, and I don't care.