my love/hate relationship with ed
so i've had the past two days off, which is nice, but i have to work tonight at 6pm and then tomorrow night at 10pm and then all nights for the next two weeks. which in general i don't mind, having a lot of free time but unfortunately it's during times that NO ONE ELSE has free. so i sleep. a lot.
but now i'm going to enjoy the next 3 hours, outside, sipping coffee and reading/chatting on the phone. hopefully the people i'd like to talk to are available. it's hard because the free time i do have i want to spend with dave. looking over my last few lj journals i've realized i haven't been chronicling (sp?) this well...words cannot describe how awesome this all is. i suppose i now realize why so many people have chosen to write/sing/paint about it. for the longest time medicine was the driving force in my life. everything else was secondary. now it's all flipped around. or at least equal. we can be doing anything, anything at all, and it's wonderful. amazingly enough, i'm not sick of him yet. after 3 months. in fact, it's quite the opposite...the more time i spend with him the more i want to be with him. it makes going to work more painful, but it's reassuring to know that he'll be around when i get done. or at least in the next few days. sadly, our schedules don't match AT ALL, especially next month when both of us have to take call....i think we might have 1 or 2 days off at the same time. but eventually will come vacation...which we still have to figure out.
so yeah. it's awesome. and strangely coincidental (or not)...how i ended up in cincy (my fourth choice?), how we ended up on the same team together (not originally supposed to happen...had to switch seniors around because of chief issues), how we ended up on call together (random, although i did ask for that call schedule so i could be post on my birthday but he didn't ask for any particular schedule). just makes you wonder.
alright, time to enjoy the day.
but now i'm going to enjoy the next 3 hours, outside, sipping coffee and reading/chatting on the phone. hopefully the people i'd like to talk to are available. it's hard because the free time i do have i want to spend with dave. looking over my last few lj journals i've realized i haven't been chronicling (sp?) this well...words cannot describe how awesome this all is. i suppose i now realize why so many people have chosen to write/sing/paint about it. for the longest time medicine was the driving force in my life. everything else was secondary. now it's all flipped around. or at least equal. we can be doing anything, anything at all, and it's wonderful. amazingly enough, i'm not sick of him yet. after 3 months. in fact, it's quite the opposite...the more time i spend with him the more i want to be with him. it makes going to work more painful, but it's reassuring to know that he'll be around when i get done. or at least in the next few days. sadly, our schedules don't match AT ALL, especially next month when both of us have to take call....i think we might have 1 or 2 days off at the same time. but eventually will come vacation...which we still have to figure out.
so yeah. it's awesome. and strangely coincidental (or not)...how i ended up in cincy (my fourth choice?), how we ended up on the same team together (not originally supposed to happen...had to switch seniors around because of chief issues), how we ended up on call together (random, although i did ask for that call schedule so i could be post on my birthday but he didn't ask for any particular schedule). just makes you wonder.
alright, time to enjoy the day.