How Do I Do This?
For two nights things were perfect. Boyfriend was here and I felt good, like everything was going to be okay. Now I'm back to panic and depression and I would give anything right now to be able to just pause time for a few hours and get ome more writing done. I'm so behind on everything. I have a 5-page paper due two weeks ago and another one due ten days ago. I've missed a bunch of class and I just wish I still had him here to hug me and forgive me and tell me that things are going to be fine, that I haven't ruined my academic career for the fiftieth time. I'm constantly screwing up school, constantly, and I can't seem to stop. I hate it so much. I hate being lonely, I hate being undisciplined, I hate everything about the way I operate, and yet I can't seem to stop.
How do you change yourself?
How do you change yourself?