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I'm having a Lupus flare up. My white blood cell count was high at my appointment last week and my Rheumatologist thinks that my body may be attacking the baby. I went in for more blood work this morning and I'm waiting to hear back from them. Doctors never respond readily when you're waiting on the edge of your seat, do they? Bastards.
I've put my body through mental boot camp this week, telling it to man up and quit being so fucking stupid. Hopefully, it worked and my WBC count has gone down. Mind over matter, right? If it hasn't worked, one of two things will most likely happen.
They may put me on steroids for the rest of my pregnancy to suppress my immune system. That will make me bitchy and fat and I'll cry a lot. But it will keep my body from attacking my child, so I'm fine with that.
Or.
They'll take the baby early by induction or c-section. I'm 33 weeks right now, so by the time they do it I'll be 34 or 35 weeks which ain't bad. Technically, you're full term at 37 weeks. They may have to keep her in the hospital for a week or so to monitor her lung and weight development, but she'll be fine.
Either way, she'll be ok. The only really crappy thing about the steroid option is that they can't just take me off of the meds once I have the baby. They have to wean me off. And that means I'll be fatter and meaner for longer!! But if that's the best thing we can do for Claudia, I'll fucking do it. I just want her to be alright.
Damn doctors office. I just tried calling again and now the fuckers are all out to lunch. I'm about to blow a gasket.
I've put my body through mental boot camp this week, telling it to man up and quit being so fucking stupid. Hopefully, it worked and my WBC count has gone down. Mind over matter, right? If it hasn't worked, one of two things will most likely happen.
They may put me on steroids for the rest of my pregnancy to suppress my immune system. That will make me bitchy and fat and I'll cry a lot. But it will keep my body from attacking my child, so I'm fine with that.
Or.
They'll take the baby early by induction or c-section. I'm 33 weeks right now, so by the time they do it I'll be 34 or 35 weeks which ain't bad. Technically, you're full term at 37 weeks. They may have to keep her in the hospital for a week or so to monitor her lung and weight development, but she'll be fine.
Either way, she'll be ok. The only really crappy thing about the steroid option is that they can't just take me off of the meds once I have the baby. They have to wean me off. And that means I'll be fatter and meaner for longer!! But if that's the best thing we can do for Claudia, I'll fucking do it. I just want her to be alright.
Damn doctors office. I just tried calling again and now the fuckers are all out to lunch. I'm about to blow a gasket.