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well i guess its no big secret that i lost my fight, but its whatever
i lasted all three rounds and gave it all i had and more
everone tells me i did good and i know i did good to an extent
but i cant help be critical of my own performance
i mean nobody wants to lose but i gave it everything i had so i guess i dont have anything to be ashamed of.
while im not ashamed of what i did, it still sucks to lose and telling people about it doesnt make it any better because i dont think they quite understands. and as gay it sounds its something only fighters can understand, because there is no experience like stepping in a ring after training like i did.
whatever i dont know.
i want to do it again, because its a good way for me to test myself and being pushed like exposed me to my own potential if that makes anysense.
my sister and my cousins saw me fight, and they told me i had one of the best fights.
they also told me right when my fight started, everybody that was watching the mma fights(mma was taking place at the north american also) turned there attention to my fight.
so i guess thats good hahaha
Its nice to be recognized for a changed, not saying that i want to be the center of attention
but when people you dont know come up to you after a fight and tell you that you had a great fight its a really good feeling.
and when my coach told me i was one of the most technical fighters on the team that was also a great feeling of accomplishment
hm. i guess i should be reflecting on the good memories instead of being so critical about myself
i mean if my team mates say i did good and complete strangers tell me the same
maybe there right and im wrong to be so critical about it.
and i dont think i mind being wrong when it comes to that.
i lasted all three rounds and gave it all i had and more
everone tells me i did good and i know i did good to an extent
but i cant help be critical of my own performance
i mean nobody wants to lose but i gave it everything i had so i guess i dont have anything to be ashamed of.
while im not ashamed of what i did, it still sucks to lose and telling people about it doesnt make it any better because i dont think they quite understands. and as gay it sounds its something only fighters can understand, because there is no experience like stepping in a ring after training like i did.
whatever i dont know.
i want to do it again, because its a good way for me to test myself and being pushed like exposed me to my own potential if that makes anysense.
my sister and my cousins saw me fight, and they told me i had one of the best fights.
they also told me right when my fight started, everybody that was watching the mma fights(mma was taking place at the north american also) turned there attention to my fight.
so i guess thats good hahaha
Its nice to be recognized for a changed, not saying that i want to be the center of attention
but when people you dont know come up to you after a fight and tell you that you had a great fight its a really good feeling.
and when my coach told me i was one of the most technical fighters on the team that was also a great feeling of accomplishment
hm. i guess i should be reflecting on the good memories instead of being so critical about myself
i mean if my team mates say i did good and complete strangers tell me the same
maybe there right and im wrong to be so critical about it.
and i dont think i mind being wrong when it comes to that.