NOW IT'S COMING TO AN END~ ♫
This post title is from VAMPS' song, MY FIRST LAST, which is really sad, but beautiful ♥
(I'll talk about it later XD)
I just used this part of the music because...
My college vacation is coming to an end~ ;-;
My classes start on Monday XD and I have to wake up at 4 a.m again, my "old" routine, I guess :x
This year, I'm growing up XD
I have to fight against my own insecurity, my own flaws... and I'm actually really scared... but in a good way xD
it's about time for me to walk with my own legs (quoting Edward Elric LOL)
I've already done lots of new things, like taking a bus by myself, I want to see my limits when I'm alone, things like that XD
I'm also getting a little higher self-esteem <3 I was never a huge fan of myself, and I'm still not...but I'm making progress XD
Simple stuff, as wearing make-up, buying clothes and shoes, taking care of hair and nails...I'm enjoying this new side of me, and I want it to keep existing, I want to think I'm pretty, because there are not limits for dreams, right? XD
In my head, I think "I'm not pretty, not intelligent, not thin, not kind...", nothing is good enough for me. And I know this is just...sad. I have notion that I don't have to think like that, but for now, it's all true...
I need to be happier with myself :3
This weekend, I bought a curling iron and two pairs of boots, I just need a few more clothes, a new purse, and I guess it's fine XD such a consumist, aren't I?
Little by little, I'm evolving XD
From Monday on, I need to pay less attention to what I wear and more attention to what I learn XD or I'll have to repeat some subjects in college (and I really don't want to do it)
and maybe, just maybe, I'll get a blog on wordpress too! But I'll post a little more casual stuff XD and in Portuguese, my first language, of course :3
I'll try to keep posting here even during this semester, and is quite a busy one XD if it's alright, I'll post at the Computer Center in the university XD
and to end this post, another part of MY FIRST LAST <3
ALL POINTS ARE TIED UP IN A LINE
I'M UNDERSTANDING NOW
THIS IS THE STRUCTURE OF OUR WORLD ♪
(I'll talk about it later XD)
I just used this part of the music because...
My college vacation is coming to an end~ ;-;
My classes start on Monday XD and I have to wake up at 4 a.m again, my "old" routine, I guess :x
This year, I'm growing up XD
I have to fight against my own insecurity, my own flaws... and I'm actually really scared... but in a good way xD
it's about time for me to walk with my own legs (quoting Edward Elric LOL)
I've already done lots of new things, like taking a bus by myself, I want to see my limits when I'm alone, things like that XD
I'm also getting a little higher self-esteem <3 I was never a huge fan of myself, and I'm still not...but I'm making progress XD
Simple stuff, as wearing make-up, buying clothes and shoes, taking care of hair and nails...I'm enjoying this new side of me, and I want it to keep existing, I want to think I'm pretty, because there are not limits for dreams, right? XD
In my head, I think "I'm not pretty, not intelligent, not thin, not kind...", nothing is good enough for me. And I know this is just...sad. I have notion that I don't have to think like that, but for now, it's all true...
I need to be happier with myself :3
This weekend, I bought a curling iron and two pairs of boots, I just need a few more clothes, a new purse, and I guess it's fine XD such a consumist, aren't I?
Little by little, I'm evolving XD
From Monday on, I need to pay less attention to what I wear and more attention to what I learn XD or I'll have to repeat some subjects in college (and I really don't want to do it)
and maybe, just maybe, I'll get a blog on wordpress too! But I'll post a little more casual stuff XD and in Portuguese, my first language, of course :3
I'll try to keep posting here even during this semester, and is quite a busy one XD if it's alright, I'll post at the Computer Center in the university XD
and to end this post, another part of MY FIRST LAST <3
ALL POINTS ARE TIED UP IN A LINE
I'M UNDERSTANDING NOW
THIS IS THE STRUCTURE OF OUR WORLD ♪