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[ethrosdemon]

Is Supernatural the the dirtiest and coolest fandom ever? It certainly makes me do things I always thought I wouldn't. It feels sort of like being Jensen Ackles' girlfriend.

(Um, House? Craziest show of all time. WEISS! *omg, dies over and over again and wants to snuggle him in a way that betrays my evil

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[ethrosdemon]

I thought a lot about interjecting on this thread an explaining myself, because the themes being discussed here are hardly one I can ingnore, but I'm not going to talk about my intent or what *I* think is going on here for one reason.

See, I have this whole issue with authorial intent and reader response. I know when I read something and comment and the writer comes back and says "*This* is what I meant..." I lose something. It's that shifting let me alone sort of thing. I've thought about this a lot in terms of fannish writing because with published writing there is no immediate forum to tap the author on the shoulder and say "is this rape? are they in love? is Dean really this passive? is it the curse? why are you so mean to me I want porn without having to think?"

I think me laying down *my* opinions on what's going on would fundamentally alter the sort of personal, individual experience of the people who read this after I posted it, you know? I mean, yes, I did write this, but it's not my place to be the thought police and tell people that because *I* wrote this my way of looking at it is better or realer somehow.

Thanks to both of you.

[maygra]

I completely respect an even approve of that, because yeah, once the text is out there, what you meant and how people react to what they read are really two separate things.

The thing is, what you've done here is brilliant regardless of what you intended or even if you meant to be this provocative or just wanted to totally explore the whole Sam as a granola lesbian thing (Which is hysterical) and how Dean would react to that in the context of someone he already loves to pieces.

I'm not without my own biases -- totally own them, and this story grabbed and shook me in ways I didn't expect, completely within the context of what I read and my own interp (obviously.)

So, I'll shut up now because I didn't mean to hijack your journal or otherwise interfere with you getting the accolades for this (no matter people's takes on character motives) that you so richly deserve. Because this is a brilliantly, funny, painfully brutal, and yet still dead on to character examination of the boys and their issues and you totally deserve kudos for bringing it to the surface in such an amazing way.

[maygra]

at the same time, I'd be totally up for discussing it off thread because you've just done something ...sheesh, I don't even know. slowed the universe down or something for a few seconds and I am utterly fascianted by that. however, absolutely no pressure. I'm enthralled, plain and simple, and that makes me all excited and chatty and the like.

[ethrosdemon]

I am in NO WAY shutting you down. Have your say. This is lj and this is a open thread and you just talk it out until you can't stand yourself! I only peeked into the thread because I was struggling with saying "I THINK" and "I MEANT" and I wanted to say to both of you that you that the whole thing about fic is that it's interactive and that I didn't want to distract from anyone's reading by trying to be an authority figure. Of course I have my own view of this dynamic, but who cares?

I just erased several self-deprecating comments. In conclusion: thank you. Email me if you want to talk to me about it in private.