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Sigh, things have just been so odd lately. I had another one of those dreams, except this time it was a little boy. He had Brian's eyes and cheekbones and my nose and jaw. Brian was playing with him and running around. The little boy was squealing and laughing and Brian was pretending he was a monster and clomping around being all silly. He was about 2 1/2 I think. Anyway, off that topic.
Maybe it's just the holiday season, but I've been so down lately. I really hate the holidays more and more each year. I wish I was single more and more every time they roll around. Maybe I"m being selfish, but I want the holidays my way, and I don't want to have to drive all over hell for someone else's sake. I told him I'd send him down on a bus, but he's refusing again. He doesn't want us to be apart for the holidays, but he doesn't realize how difficult that makes things for me. He wants to visit one of two places after christmas, but one is 6 hours away, and one is 9 hours away. I need to get my car fixed and have no idea how much it'll cost or if it'll be done by then. The appointment is tomorrow, so I guess we'll see. I don't really want to deal with having my car break down again.
Maybe it's just the holiday season, but I've been so down lately. I really hate the holidays more and more each year. I wish I was single more and more every time they roll around. Maybe I"m being selfish, but I want the holidays my way, and I don't want to have to drive all over hell for someone else's sake. I told him I'd send him down on a bus, but he's refusing again. He doesn't want us to be apart for the holidays, but he doesn't realize how difficult that makes things for me. He wants to visit one of two places after christmas, but one is 6 hours away, and one is 9 hours away. I need to get my car fixed and have no idea how much it'll cost or if it'll be done by then. The appointment is tomorrow, so I guess we'll see. I don't really want to deal with having my car break down again.