I need a hug.
I wish my parents wouldn't do scary chemical drugs.
I wish I had someone to help me out, Other than Joe. I get so fucking jealous when I hear people talking about how their parents buy them cars, or pay for their rent. ITS SO UN-FUCKING-FAIR.
I get so sad these days. I don't have the money or a reliable vehicle to get out of here... and that's all I want to do.
Run away.
I miss Tanya so much. I sent her an email that she has yet to respond to. Goddamn. I don't even have a phone to call her on. HOpe she's doing better than I.
Of course she is. She's one of the lucky ones. Her mother actually pushed her to do well through school, helped her get into college.
What'd my mom do?
Bought drugs from my addict sisters' boyfriend who lived IN OUR HOME. So fucked up. I think that's why I'm fucked up. I"ve never had the moral support of my parents. THey never cared whether I did good or bad in school. I did it all for myself.
And then... motivation escaped me.
For a year, I've been hiding away.
fuck it. fuuuuuuuuuuuck it. I'm saving up for a car, and then I'm gone. I'm So Tired of watching my parents kill themselves and act like total losers. I don't want to end up like them.
Ever.
I need a hug.
I wish I had someone to help me out, Other than Joe. I get so fucking jealous when I hear people talking about how their parents buy them cars, or pay for their rent. ITS SO UN-FUCKING-FAIR.
I get so sad these days. I don't have the money or a reliable vehicle to get out of here... and that's all I want to do.
Run away.
I miss Tanya so much. I sent her an email that she has yet to respond to. Goddamn. I don't even have a phone to call her on. HOpe she's doing better than I.
Of course she is. She's one of the lucky ones. Her mother actually pushed her to do well through school, helped her get into college.
What'd my mom do?
Bought drugs from my addict sisters' boyfriend who lived IN OUR HOME. So fucked up. I think that's why I'm fucked up. I"ve never had the moral support of my parents. THey never cared whether I did good or bad in school. I did it all for myself.
And then... motivation escaped me.
For a year, I've been hiding away.
fuck it. fuuuuuuuuuuuck it. I'm saving up for a car, and then I'm gone. I'm So Tired of watching my parents kill themselves and act like total losers. I don't want to end up like them.
Ever.
I need a hug.