shit end of the stick
So there's been some harsh, heavy, thick-and-sticky drama in our little 'group' lately. I don't know for how long this stuff has been going on for, and I don't really know the details for it, but... I think this shouldn't be happening.
I understand none of us can go back to however it was at the beginning of grade 10; ooh, what a year that was! never had so much stuff go on in a single year to-date: until this year. I know I've been out of the huge loop, and probably boarded myself up in my own house and away from others because of theatre temp, reversed sleeping schedule, pokemon, um... general assholery, I guess, for a long time.
The events of winter break were confusing: one week everything's fine (to me), the next I have no friends (except skype, but like shit they're real friends), and then for new years I get invited to two new years parties. "Parties," that is. And I think that was when I started noticing things were going on without me, and I really missed it. I really, really did.
But, I mean, what could I do? At the time I was stuck with theatre temp, and it was fun, too. I liked it a lot. And when I was finally released, I find myself stuck at home with a torn ligament in my ankle. out of the loop I go again.
I guess it's my own fault I get so out of it, considering I just don't talk to people, but, I mean... I don't know what to say about this, other than 'get on it,' to be honest. But there are so many things I've labeled 'get on it.'
Back to the main point, though, there's a lot of drama going on. The kind that used to spazz out of every crevice back in grade 8; whoa, long time ago. I don't like it, but I don't have a say in it, really. What can I do? Nothing. Maybe offer some advice. Maybe. But, yeah, a whole fuck lot that'll do in the long run. Especially when it blows up in their face and the fall come to me.
I'm relieved from everything except schoolwork and a month-to-chapter deadline. Pokemon now comes in second, after friends or writing, depending on whatever I'm doing.
I'm pretty sure, now, that I live a "out of sight, out of mind" kind of life. I got a shitty plate handed to me. Time to take out all the postit notes I have D:
I understand none of us can go back to however it was at the beginning of grade 10; ooh, what a year that was! never had so much stuff go on in a single year to-date: until this year. I know I've been out of the huge loop, and probably boarded myself up in my own house and away from others because of theatre temp, reversed sleeping schedule, pokemon, um... general assholery, I guess, for a long time.
The events of winter break were confusing: one week everything's fine (to me), the next I have no friends (except skype, but like shit they're real friends), and then for new years I get invited to two new years parties. "Parties," that is. And I think that was when I started noticing things were going on without me, and I really missed it. I really, really did.
But, I mean, what could I do? At the time I was stuck with theatre temp, and it was fun, too. I liked it a lot. And when I was finally released, I find myself stuck at home with a torn ligament in my ankle. out of the loop I go again.
I guess it's my own fault I get so out of it, considering I just don't talk to people, but, I mean... I don't know what to say about this, other than 'get on it,' to be honest. But there are so many things I've labeled 'get on it.'
Back to the main point, though, there's a lot of drama going on. The kind that used to spazz out of every crevice back in grade 8; whoa, long time ago. I don't like it, but I don't have a say in it, really. What can I do? Nothing. Maybe offer some advice. Maybe. But, yeah, a whole fuck lot that'll do in the long run. Especially when it blows up in their face and the fall come to me.
I'm relieved from everything except schoolwork and a month-to-chapter deadline. Pokemon now comes in second, after friends or writing, depending on whatever I'm doing.
I'm pretty sure, now, that I live a "out of sight, out of mind" kind of life. I got a shitty plate handed to me. Time to take out all the postit notes I have D: