Lifes a Bitch!

[etherealdream]

Hey! Wow! I'm updating! Yeah but I don't bring good news though. *I guess I'm just the bearer of bad news. Let see...on my way home from school I got a call from my mother telling me she in Caton, with Julia (my dog) to go see the neruro surgon. In stead of a pinched nerve my dog has a sever spinal damage around her neck. I don't know anything

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[bitter_crimson]

i disagree with erin. it's always mattered to me what others think, and that's just part of who i am. if people tell me i shouldn't care... well, why not? who the fuck are they to tell me to change who i am? it's funny, because they tell me i shouldn't change who i am by caring what people think, but then they tell me to change and not care...? i don't know. i mean, everyone's and everything's a hypocrite and hypocritical. blahblahblah. i find myself not caring about caring and not caring, but then caring about the fact that i don't care. my mind just chases me around in circles.

but i like you, sarah. you are a cool person. i feel sometimes that i don't have a lot in common with my friends, and maybe you feel that too... but still, they're the ones i like spending time with, not with other people who i may have the same amount in common with. blah. i am a bad friend quite often, and i don't call things or do things with people. first off, i'm horrible at keeping in touch. and also, sometimes i'll call a couple of people, but then if i don't get calls back from others soon i get all pissy (probably due to hormones) and just stop calling completely. so i know i am bad at this, and should call people a whole lot more. you should yell at me sometimes and tell me to call you or come over to your house or arrange something so we can do stuff together. i just get so used to not doing anything ever, and being so lazy, and i fall into a pattern of playing solitaire on my computer for hours on end, thinking too much.

wah. and i mean, the caring what peole think about you thing. well, of COURSE i care. so do you, obviously. just from where i'm coming from, i don't understand people who claim to not care. i don't really believe them either. b/c you always filter what you say and do. it comes naturally. even if it's not to a great extent. if i believed something or thought something that i knew would make all of my friends hate me, hell no, i wouldn't tell them. because i do care about what they think. and why go out looking for more resistance among others as well? i mean, i generally take the path i'm most comfortable with. the things i do, i know what people will think of me, and i accept that. but i wouldn't do absolutely anything. why bother with all the hassle? hey, if some people want it, well, good for them. that's they way they choose to live their lives. but i don't. blegh. i never make any sense. i guess all i was trying to say here is that i can identify with this in some way, and that i like you being my friend. meh.

Thanks!

[etherealdream]

Thanks too all of you! (Erin, Ami, Kim). I know...I get a little crazy...all I need to do sometimes is "vent". But I love you guys very much..I care about all of you! I'm very glad you all care about me too! All I can really say is that I realy very glad that all of you are my true friends! So thanks!!!

I understand what you all are saying! Its just something I have to work on!

[bitter_crimson]

::FLYING GLOMP!!!:: it's alright, everyone needs to vent.

and i need to force you to watch either beautiful thing or some of queer as folk. hmmm... and it SUCKS because i have like no spare time whatsoever this week.

::grumbles and kicks a can::