One week till SB
Ok, it appears that I was flipping out about nothing at all. Basically, I had thought I had a miscarriage, which would be quite impossible, but maybe like .0001 percent possible. The Dr. pretty much told me he had no idea what happened to me, but it wasn't that or I would have tested positive on the pregnancy test. So yeayyy, no miscarriage for me.
On anothe note, I have pretty much been a full time therapist this past three days because our full time therapist (jim) broke his hand and had to have emergency surgery on Wednesday. He should be back Monday, which is cool because it means next week won't be quite so hectic.
I am SO glad spring break is coming up, I am totally burning out majorly and I can't wait to graduate, but I fear it at the same time. I am afraid I won't be able to find a decent job, or one at all for that matter. But I do feel like I have a ton to offer my future employer, when I get one. If they only knew.....how great I am (ha ha).
I am listening to Christina Aguilera. hilarious. plus, I'm enjoying it. HA.
SO, I am stressed to say the least...but I am really trying to take it one day at a time. I find my age to be quite a problem, not for others, but for me. I somehow feel inadequate, even though I KNOW I am...I just need some experience. God, please, let someone hire me.
Iam desperately trying to get some wedding stuff taken care of. I feel like there is so little I can do this far in advance. I have some money in the bank, but people just don't work this far in advance it seems.
Work and school are the major stresses. I am working towards being completely independent at work, with only one thing left - holding a family session on my own. I'm unsure of why it makes me so damned nervous. School is almost over with, I am looking to get the rest of my assignments done (mostly) over spring break, so I can concentrate on my job hunt.
Then, of course, there are the little things that bother me - stuff with my dad, dealing with (nearly) married life, and always my supervision (which is when I meet with my supervisor to work on past things that have fucked me up - basically).
My plans for the weekend:
Friday - probably drink some, play some video games, watch movies...
Saturday - Horseback at 11, shopping with Mom, who knows after that.
No plans yet for sunday. Hopefully a whole lot of nothing.
Whisperer - if you see this, your entries keep disappearing from my friends page. I read them every day pretty much, but sometimes they're there and sometimes they aren't...is this a decision by you or my page just messing up? I have struggled with my own mental illness for quite some time, one of the reasons that I am in the mental health field. Since my diagnosis is different than your own, it is extremely interesting to get a first hand perspective of someone else. And if you're worried about confidentiality (by using your name in my LJ entry), don't worry, only like 2 of my best friends ever really read this. I look forward to gaining insight through your experiences.
Best of luck to all.
On anothe note, I have pretty much been a full time therapist this past three days because our full time therapist (jim) broke his hand and had to have emergency surgery on Wednesday. He should be back Monday, which is cool because it means next week won't be quite so hectic.
I am SO glad spring break is coming up, I am totally burning out majorly and I can't wait to graduate, but I fear it at the same time. I am afraid I won't be able to find a decent job, or one at all for that matter. But I do feel like I have a ton to offer my future employer, when I get one. If they only knew.....how great I am (ha ha).
I am listening to Christina Aguilera. hilarious. plus, I'm enjoying it. HA.
SO, I am stressed to say the least...but I am really trying to take it one day at a time. I find my age to be quite a problem, not for others, but for me. I somehow feel inadequate, even though I KNOW I am...I just need some experience. God, please, let someone hire me.
Iam desperately trying to get some wedding stuff taken care of. I feel like there is so little I can do this far in advance. I have some money in the bank, but people just don't work this far in advance it seems.
Work and school are the major stresses. I am working towards being completely independent at work, with only one thing left - holding a family session on my own. I'm unsure of why it makes me so damned nervous. School is almost over with, I am looking to get the rest of my assignments done (mostly) over spring break, so I can concentrate on my job hunt.
Then, of course, there are the little things that bother me - stuff with my dad, dealing with (nearly) married life, and always my supervision (which is when I meet with my supervisor to work on past things that have fucked me up - basically).
My plans for the weekend:
Friday - probably drink some, play some video games, watch movies...
Saturday - Horseback at 11, shopping with Mom, who knows after that.
No plans yet for sunday. Hopefully a whole lot of nothing.
Whisperer - if you see this, your entries keep disappearing from my friends page. I read them every day pretty much, but sometimes they're there and sometimes they aren't...is this a decision by you or my page just messing up? I have struggled with my own mental illness for quite some time, one of the reasons that I am in the mental health field. Since my diagnosis is different than your own, it is extremely interesting to get a first hand perspective of someone else. And if you're worried about confidentiality (by using your name in my LJ entry), don't worry, only like 2 of my best friends ever really read this. I look forward to gaining insight through your experiences.
Best of luck to all.