Warning....warning
Danger, danger, depressing post ahead.
I realized recently that I've let this world kill me a little bit. I feel disgusting.
There were certain things I couldn't do or get because I was free, people don't like that. So, to survive and move furthur in life, I let part of me sink into nothingness and die. One of my favorite parts. One of the things I actually liked about myself is gone, forever. Can't get it back, I tried.
On the other hand, I find memories to be very picturesque and beautiful at the moment. Almost cliche, ya know things that don't really happen in real life. Like having a sitcom-style pillow fight with the two people you love as much as you love your family(for those of us who actually adores our family, flaws and all). Yeah, pillow fight...that could never happen. *stares* Uh-huh.
Just like a little girl, having climbed a brick wall just to watch the sunset in the hills. You ever look back on a memory and realize you saw it from a different point of view then where you were standing, and you even see yourself. That can be really beautiful.
Wondering what prompted this?
Endless Skies
How many years, since you found yourself, staring at an Endless Sky?
How aware of yourself, who you are and where your going?
Only living, only breathing, loseing all sense of time.
Most fragile of things, captivates and embraces you,
Surrender and be witness to this rarest of moments.
You live within the sense of the order of things,
What is truth and what is important,
What defines you?
No need to fear, no need to worry,
About years that passed, about time you lost.
Live seconds as a lifetime,
Time, it does not matter.
You live within the sense of the stillness of time.
Most fragile of things, captivates and embraces you,
Surrender and be witness to this rarest of moments,
Where you live within the sense of the order of things,
What is truth, and what is important?
What defines you?
No need to fear, no need to worry,
About years that passed or time you lost.
Live a second as a lifetime,
Time doesn't matter.
How many years?
How many years?
How many years?
Since you found yourself?
Since you found yourself?
Since you found yourself?
Staring at an endless sky?
By VNV Nation
The part from "No need to fear" all the way to "Time, it does not matter" really gets me...when I'm alone. Some of their songs really reach me.
Rehersals start...technically...tomarrow. I will sing on stage eventually, for an audience. I'm so happy. Course..I think I'm allergic to..."THEM". They actually gave me a rash once!
P.s. Archer is such a sexy beast and Damien is so lickable! Just ask Alyssa!
Please forgive me if I breath,
Please forgive me if I bleed.
I realized recently that I've let this world kill me a little bit. I feel disgusting.
There were certain things I couldn't do or get because I was free, people don't like that. So, to survive and move furthur in life, I let part of me sink into nothingness and die. One of my favorite parts. One of the things I actually liked about myself is gone, forever. Can't get it back, I tried.
On the other hand, I find memories to be very picturesque and beautiful at the moment. Almost cliche, ya know things that don't really happen in real life. Like having a sitcom-style pillow fight with the two people you love as much as you love your family(for those of us who actually adores our family, flaws and all). Yeah, pillow fight...that could never happen. *stares* Uh-huh.
Just like a little girl, having climbed a brick wall just to watch the sunset in the hills. You ever look back on a memory and realize you saw it from a different point of view then where you were standing, and you even see yourself. That can be really beautiful.
Wondering what prompted this?
Endless Skies
How many years, since you found yourself, staring at an Endless Sky?
How aware of yourself, who you are and where your going?
Only living, only breathing, loseing all sense of time.
Most fragile of things, captivates and embraces you,
Surrender and be witness to this rarest of moments.
You live within the sense of the order of things,
What is truth and what is important,
What defines you?
No need to fear, no need to worry,
About years that passed, about time you lost.
Live seconds as a lifetime,
Time, it does not matter.
You live within the sense of the stillness of time.
Most fragile of things, captivates and embraces you,
Surrender and be witness to this rarest of moments,
Where you live within the sense of the order of things,
What is truth, and what is important?
What defines you?
No need to fear, no need to worry,
About years that passed or time you lost.
Live a second as a lifetime,
Time doesn't matter.
How many years?
How many years?
How many years?
Since you found yourself?
Since you found yourself?
Since you found yourself?
Staring at an endless sky?
By VNV Nation
The part from "No need to fear" all the way to "Time, it does not matter" really gets me...when I'm alone. Some of their songs really reach me.
Rehersals start...technically...tomarrow. I will sing on stage eventually, for an audience. I'm so happy. Course..I think I'm allergic to..."THEM". They actually gave me a rash once!
P.s. Archer is such a sexy beast and Damien is so lickable! Just ask Alyssa!
Please forgive me if I breath,
Please forgive me if I bleed.