Back at the drawing board
So here I am.
Married, armed with a Masters degree, treading on a (possibly) well-paved career, with no aim in life.
It's strange how life can be so unpredictable. Just 5 years back, I was all about partying,drinking and living the life of any random 25 year old.
Did I have any aim back then?
No.
Was I with anyone special who made me fantasize and think about getting married and settling down like any other 25 year old Singaporean lady should, would be the best thing I could possibly do for myself?
Obviously not.
I would of course, want to get married. Someday. Eventually. You know, to find the man of my dreams. But marriage, back then, was unthinkable. No way was I going to tie myself down to someone (that didn't even exist), much less, give up my life.
But 5 years on and oh how things have changed. I changed jobs. Ran 4 marathons. Can't club for nuts. Finished my Masters. Found the love of my life and got married.
That's nice. End of story. I've finally found what I wanted. I can finally live the dream. Now, the only thing left for me is to start a family, have kids and consider my life fulfilled and die a happy woman.
Ah! But life is really not all that scripted.
Yes I got married, but I want more. Kids? Sure.. but not now.
I want a life that's filled with personal fulfillment. I want a job that's meaningful and makes me appreciate the time that I have in life. I want to embody the spirit of continuous learning. I want to think. I want to learn. I want to make a difference in people's life. I want to never stop wanting.
Hubs says that maybe I should stop wanting coz the wants never end.
I say, I want to keep wanting. To learn. Coz learning never ends.
Married, armed with a Masters degree, treading on a (possibly) well-paved career, with no aim in life.
It's strange how life can be so unpredictable. Just 5 years back, I was all about partying,drinking and living the life of any random 25 year old.
Did I have any aim back then?
No.
Was I with anyone special who made me fantasize and think about getting married and settling down like any other 25 year old Singaporean lady should, would be the best thing I could possibly do for myself?
Obviously not.
I would of course, want to get married. Someday. Eventually. You know, to find the man of my dreams. But marriage, back then, was unthinkable. No way was I going to tie myself down to someone (that didn't even exist), much less, give up my life.
But 5 years on and oh how things have changed. I changed jobs. Ran 4 marathons. Can't club for nuts. Finished my Masters. Found the love of my life and got married.
That's nice. End of story. I've finally found what I wanted. I can finally live the dream. Now, the only thing left for me is to start a family, have kids and consider my life fulfilled and die a happy woman.
Ah! But life is really not all that scripted.
Yes I got married, but I want more. Kids? Sure.. but not now.
I want a life that's filled with personal fulfillment. I want a job that's meaningful and makes me appreciate the time that I have in life. I want to embody the spirit of continuous learning. I want to think. I want to learn. I want to make a difference in people's life. I want to never stop wanting.
Hubs says that maybe I should stop wanting coz the wants never end.
I say, I want to keep wanting. To learn. Coz learning never ends.